The Evolution of Miss Devina Cox
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#Locktober is a Doorway to a Whole New World
Originally Posted Oct 6, 2018
Long before there was a Devina, and long before there was a panty boi subbie that would evolve into Devina, there was an oddly curious me that looked at images and illustrations of chastity with a complete bewilderment. I never understood it, and looking back now, how could I? When a male creature sees chastity, they see a denial of their basic filthy male urges. Others will see it as a fetish experience to delay by a period of time with teasing, those same basic filthy urges. But many years later from my first bewilderment of BDSM/Chastity, and as a devoted sissy who as of today has been locked for 1 year, 3 months, 1 week and 1 day; sissy chastity is not a denial of anything.
It's a doorway to a new world.
No matter if you are a subbie or a sissy, when you experience chastity for the first time for any period of time beyond a session with a Domme, whatever you have left of your emasculated male ego (EME), rebels angrily. Your first hours, days, and perhaps week is filled with your urges and desires of your old ugly male life on overload because your EME knows this is the beginning of the true end for him. Even if locked for one day, your curiosity will push you to see if you could do two, or three, and so on.
My first chastity experiment was for 48 hours and even when complete, I was already thinking of what it could be like to go longer, what type of device would one need to go a week, or two or more? How would my Domme feel if I could make a month? And then the secret behind Chastity began to reveal itself to me..
With each mini milestone I made in sissy chastity, Lady Diva would be so pleased, and encouraged me to push past the physical restraints to realize that each day spent in sissy chastity was unlocking this giant door to another level of my sissy life! Each day you live in chastity moves you further and further past your old life you wanted to escape in the first place when you give in to submission to a Woman. It's impossible to see that until you offer a gift to Femdomination, and like so many ways before, it remains true. Your gifts of submission are returned to you in ways beyond your dreams!
When I made 37 days in sissy chastity as my previous best before my current journey of 15 months and counting, my sissy brain was still wired to experience physical pleasure by sissy clit stimulation. Removing access to one part of the body forces the brain to re-route new neural pathways to compensate. The physical pleasures I once experienced regularly were now closed off and new ones were created. Experiencing new physical and emotional sensations when one is past their physical development stages of youth is an amazing journey that is difficult to describe to those who haven't experienced it themselves.
In chastity, you no longer penetrate anything. This is an enormous physiological and psychological evolution. YOU, are what is penetrated! Sex begins to change in a dramatic way to the point where the longer you serve in chastity for Her, the more happy She is with your gift, the more you experience your reward of being penetrated. Once you begin to associate being penetrated with the only source of sexual gratification you will receive, your brain and body will begin to redefine your senses, your pleasures, and your urges. This I have experienced first hand and sharing those thoughts with Lady Diva as a further emotional bonding moment between Superior and sissy.
At some point during months 6-8 in sissy chastity, I began having sexual dreams never experienced before. What at one time in my life were "normal" sexual dreams, now had evolved to where I was now experiencing dreams of being penetrated by Shecock of both varieties. Domme's strapons and hot Shecock and the sensations of my asspussy being filled by them created a release of happy hormones in my brain that on two occasions caused me to wake up to a sissy leak in my bed. This was a massive seismic shift upon realizing what was now happening within me! Chastity wasn't about closing something off, it had unleashed something inside me, something that was amazing. I've now arrived to a place where conscious and subconscious thoughts of sex are 100% as a bottom.
Even more, I've realized that my enduring devotion to sissy chastity is a 24/7 gift to Lady Diva and Maitresse Cathie. No matter the time or circumstance, when it pleases Them, They know that in that moment, they possess a piece of a sissy that is causing a deeper evolution of another human who simply wanted to be better that the male vessel that once brought them to the world of BDSM. Even though I still have to deal with the vessel, what it holds is the creation of those Goddeses that took the lump of clay that was me, first kneeling in a hotel room doorway in front of Mistress Morganna, and continue to create an evolving piece of sissy art by Their hands.
Locktober can be a celebration of something life changing for you as well. It should never really be about denial if you approach it the right way. I have never once asked for a release, and will not, because I know now that the more I give, the greater the reward I receive will be. That is the lesson of Locktober.
Sincerely Sissy
Devina