Day 3344 in Sissy Chastity & The Joys of Staying Soft

 

I like the fact that today is just a random number in my permanent sissy chastity journey. Day 3344 does have a nice ring to it however. What's on my mind this morning is the joy a sissy experiences only after years of chastity training, when they revel in the permanent changes on one's body, and by that I mean that we begin to stay soft almost all the time. This includes when being turned on.

I know all of us can go back to our beginning panty boi days when merely fondling a pair of Woman's panties would induce the most raging hardon's of our lives, and that connection was intense. Many stay with that kink portion of our journey, where the clothes of a Woman equate a powerful kink. 

 But there is a magical world beyond just the kink, and one only finds that world when a Woman opens the door to it. That means we have to reveal our true selves to a Woman, either by choice or by accident, but only a Woman can allow you in

 But once you have been allowed in, an entire world of choices becomes yours should you wish to pursue them. You can stay a playing panty boi, dabbling in using Feminization to serve your still male ego dominated kinks, because that is the easy route, and many choose easy.

But the world of allowing Femininity to envelop you, shape you, change you, and make you a better person mind, body, and spirit, that is a world beyond capable thought at the start.  But should you choose to take each step one by one, you will find yourself miles and miles away from where you began, and you will never miss the place you started.

 Finding Dominant Women to forcibly purge the evil and destructive male ego from your life is essential. Humiliation, documentation, and positive reinforcement of your new life are all critical steps needed to accept the sissy you secretly have known for many years, has always existed. I am a believer that real sissies are born, and if we are truly fortunate, the Feminine Universe reveals itself to us to discover our true selves fate intended us to be.

 I became much more fulfilled as a person when I accepted both my failures as a masquerading male's male, cast that aside and began embracing the sissy I knew I was since I was very young. I now proudly have a whole second bedroom filled with more Female clothes etc than in the "other" room, where I still have to masquerade in vanilla life. In fact I write my blog posts from my sissy bedroom, surrounded by the Feminine energy of all the clothes, panties, dresses etc many gifted to me by amazing Women. But changing the packaging on the outside is only a small part of the equation. Becoming the real sissy the Feminine Universe intended you to be, means changing spiritually and physically.

 Sissy chastity is that gateway, and it's been an amazing thing to witness the sheer explosion of sissies worldwide embracing chastity as a normal party of everyone's sissy life. I absolutely love it that chastity is a sissy's new normal, and 3344 days later, I can't imagine not being permanently denied physical pleasures of a life I have willingly left behind. But those new to chastity always fret over physical stimulations and the joys of self joy. But as many of us experienced sissies know, another whole new world of sexual pleasure awaits those brave enough to change how their sissy brains experience pleasure sexually. 

Any sissy who discovers their hidden sexual organ, the p-spot sissygasm, soon understands that sexual pleaure in any other way becomes a massive disappointment. A real sissygasm is the closest experience we will ever have in achieving a true Womanly physical and spiritual experience, and as sissies it becomes our duty to learn to only want to experience satisfaction in this manner. The days of being a painty boi, jerking off your rock hard erection into a pair of panties is long over.

 Being a sissy means chiselling away all the ugliness of your original male existence and smoothing out the rough edges and replacing them with softer curves, softer traits, more empathy, better manners, quieter voices, and making way at all times for the stronger Women in our lives, elevating Them, and Their desires.

Our experiences as sissies, buttressed by long term chastity, allows us the experiences of our sissy clits remaining restrained for long periods of time, and in turn becoming softer, smaller, and completely insignificant in our most basic sexual urges where our p-spot sissygasms replace the old ways. 

That is where the joys of being soft becomes a spiritual elevation of our Feminine selves. Being soft is the thing we all should experience, because it means our minds are right. We aren't being controlled by useless male thoughts behind the scenes. Our old male egos have been obliterated and crushed to dust. What we offer now is soft, pretty, and in full contrast to our old ways

 When once in our younger days, many dreamed of having size and girth in those ugly cotton briefs, we have now progressed to a place where we love and adore those above us who are beautiful, Feminine, advanced, and now make us dream of shrinking our panty encased sissy-clits to as small as possible. And the smaller our sissy-clits become the more beautiful expression of our developing Femininity our sissy leaks become

But perhaps the best thing about all the above is when you share those experiences with the Dominant Women in your life. Expressing your grattitude to Them, in allowing you to grow into the sissy you have always been meant to be, develops another under developed sissy trait: Gratitude.

Sissies should always express their genuine gratitude to the Women in their lives who have created the place for a sissy to become the real versions of themselves. Because as we know, without Women, we are nothing. 

 The more you give to others, the more you will receive from the Feminine Universe. I have lived this enough to know it is absolute truth.

Sincerely Sissy

Devina 

When It's This Beautiful, How Could You Not Madly Love It So?

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There Was Really No Other Choice

 

Early stages of Devina

I've been thinking back lately to pivotal moments in my sissy life, where I came to major crossroads and chose a path that left me no return. One I always look back fondly now is coming to the conclusion that I needed to pursue my submission from a sissy perspective, as continuing to be a panty boi male subbie was a a path of diminishing returns.

Since I've always thought of myself as a bit of a lone wolf type, it didn't make much sense to carry on in any male submissive role as beyond the foundational training Mistress Morganna had provided, simply to be one male subbie in a filthy sea of icky males. Being a sissy provided many things to my soul, but it also provided a much less crowded place to try and discover myself and to hopefully grow. I had no idea back then what I would even become, as I certainly never imagined it would be where I am today. But I knew I needed to find someplace else in the BDSM world and admitting to myself and to Mistress Morganna and then Lady Diva Cane that I didn't just want to be a sissy, I needed to be a sissy in order to discover myself.

 

In realizing my inner sissy and being able to have the opportunity for Devina to blossom and grow, my love for Women has only deepened as my sissy journey has continued. Even when I reached the point of acceptance that vanilla sex with Women was becoming of less and less value in my life, and admitting that my desires for Shecock was becoming more and more of value in my life, my sincere love of Women only grew as it moved away from sexual and more towards spiritual. My empathy began to increase, my desire to bond spiritually with Women in the special ways that Women do, became noticeable to me. I realized that I was much more a sissy lesbian than anything, even if I could no longer muster the energy to chase Women in any vanilla capacity. No, relationships with Women would now be unique, and from a place where I was always a bottom to Them, and that was something that I would discover was very fulfilling.

 

But it was sissy chastity in many ways that brought it all into focus. No longer consumed with thoughts of self pleasuring that thing between my legs, chastity brought things far more into focus of what my emotional needs and spiritual needs are. The eventual experience of my first hands free sissygasm only served to reinforce that my decision was right all along. There has been no experience that could compare as a male to the sensations felt experiencing my first true sissygasm, and the joy it brought me to know that I could finally cum like a Woman. It only brought me closer to the Women I'm able to share my sissylife with, which is so wonderful.

Dominant Women tend to have special places in Their world for Their sissy gurls, and the more you show them that you want to be in that place, the more you earn your way into that place, the more magical and wonderful it becomes to find yourself within it. For me there was no other logical choice. One could say being a sissy was my destiny...

 

Sincerely Sissy

Devina 

May Motivationals

 

Dreaming of Shecock is a Regular and Normal Thing Now

 I can't exactly recall when it started, but its been for sure at least 3 years ago now, maybe more. On more weekends than not, when I have no alarm to wake me and I can just sleep peacefully, a beautiful thing happens in the hour or so before I wake, as the subconscious and conscious mind are mixing...

I dream intensely of Shecock

The one's I've sucked, the ones I dream of sucking, and the ones I want to suck again and again. The orientation is always the same visually. I'm always beneath a beautiful Woman and Her gorgeous cock 

 My sissy clit remains semi turgid in it's cage and panties but my brain synapses fire into beautiful, soothing thoughts of making love to Women's cocks. It is such a beautiful, calming and peaceful way to begin my day. It further reinforces my complete sexual transformation, and when you consider that I have had far more sexual experiences with Trans Women, than Women, it feels entirely natural and wonderful.

And therein lies the difference between kink play, and fundamental life transformation. It's easy in your conscious mind to think about, obsess over, and enjoy your kinks or preferences.  My journey has been years long and has rewired my brain, my desires, and my basic needs to where what fuels my sissy life isn't something I have to turn on, or indulge in.

Its simply there. Always. 24-7

 All thoughts, awake or not, when it comes to sexuality, and my place in life are in submission to Shecock. Both Women's strapons and TGirl cock. It's not even a debate I have internally. There's no cheating with my thoughts in regards to Women. As a sissy, I'm a total failure with Women anyway so why bother to keep failing?  It's easier to submit and serve, and far more rewarding.

I truly hope any sissy reading this finds their own place like I have. It's a place I never wish to retreat from. Ever. 

The Chastity Chronicles: 1000 Days Locked & a Sissy's Open Letter to her Mistress

 Originally posted March 23, 2020

Dear Lady Diva Cane,

Once upon a time there was a rather pathetic male subbie who had given into the dark desires that consumed his young mind, and who had given into the fear of the complete unknown and placed himself into the hands of a true Breaker of men, in the form of Mistress Morganna. It was through Her systematic no-nonsense re-programming of a large number of disgusting male traits I had held since adolescence, that I began to see through a dimly lit haze, what might be the real me that spent a lifetime since early childhood hidden in shadows, and in the deepest recesses of my mind and my soul. Mistress Morganna began to rebuild my foundation as a lump of clay before Her, and began putting the building blocks together that would ultimately be the foundation I stand upon today.

 

Mistress Morganna's gracious act of introducing me to You might have been the single most life altering moment in terms of my life path and where it suddenly began to draw me towards. All the deep secrets I held, and any guilt or shame, and confusion that came with them, slowly began to feel less frightening as I felt a connection to You as a submissive. My desire to explore BDSM (and later the Feminine side of my personality) did not grow from a desire to be punished, or to be taken down a few pegs for a short period of time by a strict Woman. Nor was it to be ridiculed and humiliated from a sense of vulnerability. I think from the very first time I touched a Woman's pantyhose clad legs as a youth and heard laughter from all the Women in our house who thought it was cute, the reaction I had, was to find a place where I could connect with that initial moment and allow that seed to grow in a place that could nurture it and protect it until it was strong enough to grow on it's own.

That's what You gave me, even before I really knew it myself.

With each step I took under your wing, You became the Big Sister who always was in control, and who I began to trust would never lead me astray. You made a space within Your world, among all the various kinks, fetishes, sadisims, and perversions of the mind and flesh, for a very nervous closet sissy who yearned so badly to share her true self with someone who could understand me. Your chats over the years with me about many things, built a bond that was always built on Your Dominance, Your Guidance, and Your Wisdom, yet it allowed me the freedom to grow and to learn about who and what I was, and the ability to seek my truth where it led me.

 

In turn I took the lessons that Mistress Morganna and Yourself forged into me and always remembered that my relations with anyone in the kink/alt lifestyle world, would always be a reflection on You. Manners, politeness, patience, and a lack of ego, with the openness to always learn was what I carry with me always. With any compliments I have received along the way, I always made sure that You received the credit for shaping me who I was at any given time; then and now.

Domme / sub relationships come in all shapes, styles, sizes, and patterns. There is no one size fits all, and You know this as well as anyone. In the years where the male sub you began to re-shape needed the time and space to reconcile a growing and undeniable love of Transgendered Women, with the very real and emotional sissy that was breaking free from within, You not only allowed me the space to bring those worlds slowly together, You always encouraged me. You never shamed me, or ridiculed me, but instead You empowered me. You encouraged me, and congratulated me on my sense of taste and unyielding personal code of what I wished to be based on who I new I was.

So many times after one of our many Girl/gurl (sister chats as we called them) talks, I would beam with a sense of confidence and warmth in knowing that someone out there truly understood me, and cared about my well-being. You have always shared in my personal picky high standards in people, and as a result, I grew in confidence as the sissy I was slowly becoming for real. I began to feel at ease with sharing any twisted secret of desire I had with You because I always knew I would find acceptance and never face judgment for the things I truly loved. You were the first to completely understand me when I expressed that I was a sissy lesbian, and that my love for Women only deepened when expressed as Devina.

 

Thanks to You I began to make Your dominace the centrepiece of my sissylife, as I slowly branched out to have Devina's own circle of Female friends. In that time, Your graciousness has brought me the gifts of friendship from as many as 8 other Dominant Women along with several other Trans Women. What this has given me is a circle of Female influence on my life that touches me on a daily basis in some way shape or form, and You have never felt threatened by it, which deepens my bond to our relationship even more.

When I began my sissy chastity journey, it was not with any fanfare, or boasting of what I wished to do. It was instead a quiet devotion to You, and later Maitresse Cathie LaDivine (who became another beloved Dominant Sister who brought nothing but love and encouragement to my sissylife) as a form of sacrifice and a way to honour daily what You have made in me. As the days became weeks, and the weeks into months, I began to experience a metamorphosis, on a deeper physical and spiritual manner. With the physiological changes of extended chastity, a deeper emotional connection was made to my submission to You and to the Feminine circle around me. It was that connection and spiritual bond that changed the entire way I first saw chastity training. Chastity was not something to be endured, with a finish line, but a method of discovery, and a path forward to personal growth.

 

Your empowerment has now allowed me to create a world where the very fabric of who I am and what I need for personal fulfillment has morphed into something I could have once never, ever thought possible. You have allowed me a way forward where what is physical satisfaction, emotional satisfaction, and spiritual satisfaction now center around the needs of Devina the sissy, not the carrying case she came into this world with. You have made it possible to express my love of Trans Women and Shecock in all it's forms without prejudice or shame. You make it possible for me to feel the warmth and love that a Dominant Woman can express in Their own unique ways, even in times when I don't always love myself. For that alone, I cannot express how much that means to me.

Day 1000 is not a destination, it is merely a sign post on route to somewhere beyond. As I always try and seek balance with the needs of Devina with the world around us (which has seemingly gone mad; more than normal), I always know that You are a constant. You are one of the rare few that know me in ways that less than a handful on this earth do, and that makes You a rare gem to me

Thank You, Lady Diva for allowing me the opportunity to give my Chastenial gift to You. I'm more proud of You having my gift, than in anything I sacrificed to earn it for You.

Your Sissy Always

Miss Devina Cox