I can't exactly recall when it started, but its been for sure at least 3 years ago now, maybe more. On more weekends than not, when I have no alarm to wake me and I can just sleep peacefully, a beautiful thing happens in the hour or so before I wake, as the subconscious and conscious mind are mixing...
I dream intensely of Shecock
The one's I've sucked, the ones I dream of sucking, and the ones I want to suck again and again. The orientation is always the same visually. I'm always beneath a beautiful Woman and Her gorgeous cock
My sissy clit remains semi turgid in it's cage and panties but my brain synapses fire into beautiful, soothing thoughts of making love to Women's cocks. It is such a beautiful, calming and peaceful way to begin my day. It further reinforces my complete sexual transformation, and when you consider that I have had far more sexual experiences with Trans Women, than Women, it feels entirely natural and wonderful.
And therein lies the difference between kink play, and fundamental life transformation. It's easy in your conscious mind to think about, obsess over, and enjoy your kinks or preferences. My journey has been years long and has rewired my brain, my desires, and my basic needs to where what fuels my sissy life isn't something I have to turn on, or indulge in.
Its simply there. Always. 24-7
All thoughts, awake or not, when it comes to sexuality, and my place in life are in submission to Shecock. Both Women's strapons and TGirl cock. It's not even a debate I have internally. There's no cheating with my thoughts in regards to Women. As a sissy, I'm a total failure with Women anyway so why bother to keep failing? It's easier to submit and serve, and far more rewarding.
I truly hope any sissy reading this finds their own place like I have. It's a place I never wish to retreat from. Ever.