Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 5 - Christy McNicol

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One Million - The Road Back

 

If you don't know, this is the second version of my blog after gewgel suddenly , without warning, and without explanation (even when challenged) nuked my blog after 11 1/2 years. That first blog had over 9.7 million views and I was crushed. I came very close to throwing in the towel.

But it was my need to have my sissy story "forevered" in the internet, so that there was no denying who I always was. So, I started all over again, except this time I had the weight of my own name being shadowbanned by gewgel on all levels.

The growth of this blog was slow, painfully slow. You couldn't search my name for months and find any traces to me of this new blog. But I soldiered on, day after day, re-establishing my foot hold. The first months were depressing with 3-5k views per month, then for months it felt like my traffic was throttled at 10k, then 15k. For over a year I couldn't get over 15k views no matter what I tried. 

It took over 2 years to hit 500 000 views. I kept going on.

The this Feb something happened, other search engine traffic came alive and the numbers started growing, slowly then suddenly. Now only 9 months after taking more than 2 years to hit 500 000 views, I've gone over 1 000 000 as of this morning. Between this blog and my old one, I've gone over 10 million.

Thank you to everyone who has helped me rebuild this place where the sissy life, my story, and my love of Women and Trans Women can be celebrated. 

Erotic Art and the Intrusion of AI

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Weekend Wisdom

 

Perfect Imperfection - Miss Tracy Dallas

 Originally Posted June 10, 2019

 Some of my blog posts happen quickly, while others require a bolt of inspiration or motivation to bring out. Others percolate over a long time in trying to formulate and shape an idea worth sharing. This post has been many weeks or even longer in the making, for a variety of reasons.

One of the dearest things that my cherished D/s relationship with Lady Diva Cane has brought me is our G/girlfriend chats, where I can confide in Her all the things going on in my sissy brain when it all seems a bit much for me to stay on top of. Among many of our little chats was a wonderful thing said to me by Lady Diva that She felt I indeed had a Womanly intuition about many things not only in my sissy life but in general when it comes to people. That was a very proud moment for me as a sissy as my Gemini brain has always felt as if one of my 'twins' was indeed Female.

I've often trusted my Womanly intuition along my sissy journey when it's come to interactions as a sub, and sissy with other Dommes, Trans Women, and kink play in general. While we all make mistakes in life when it comes to interacting with people, and I'm certainly no different, I do have a bit of pride in my sixth sense in being able to read people's energy, even from afar, and this has served me very well. Some of my most cherished friendships and interactions with Dominant Women have come from relying on this sixth sense of mine to tell if my sissy energy resonates with another's more Radiant Womanly Power.

Which brings me to the strikingly radiant Woman at the top of this blog post and the topic of today. Miss Tracy Dallas.

I'm not exactly sure when it was I discovered Miss Dallas but seeing Her for the first time sent a lightning bolt through my sissy self. Dominant Women all posses a certain beauty and it comes in all forms, shapes, sizes, and intensities. Miss Tracy gave off a unique energy that immediately caused an energy vibration in my sissy brain, even before I was able to learn more about Her. That Womanly intuition was again on the mark as I was able to respectfully reach out to Her and occasionally interact on a social media basis.

 

I soon learned of Her embrace of the Transgender and gender bending lifestyles, and that only made me more intrigued by Her, but as time went on I realized something more, about Her and myself.

I think that no matter what side of kink/bdsm/alt life play we engage in, there is a process in which we take certain parts of our vanilla self and exaggerate them to the extreme until we become the person we are within the alt lifestyle we choose. It's why sissies want to be frilly pink maids or trashy sluts, and why Dommes are drawn to extreme heels, latex, corsets etc.. There are things within us that we want to shape and manipulate to being ourselves to a place we wish to be. In understanding this nature of all of us, I began to realize why I held certain strong magnetism's to certain people within my sissylife, be it Dommes and certainly Trans Women.

As Miss Dallas would occasionally share Her vacation photos with the world, I also realized something within myself and that was my deep seated appreciation of what might be referred to as imperfect beauty. Those who aren't blessed to have hit the perfect genetic jackpot in every way but instead have unique and interesting quirks and perceived imperfections that come together in a special puzzle that makes them special to those fortunate enough to have the gift of appreciation of such things.

 

It made me appreciate perhaps what life growing up for Miss Tracy might have been like ( I know nothing of the details, but it's pure speculation and reliance on my Womanly intuition, so apologies if I completely get it wrong. But I thought of how perhaps at certain times in Her life growing up She may have considered Herself too tall or too uncoordinated or too whatever we deal with before we blossom into who we eventually become. The magic of Miss Dallas happens when She steps into Her world of BDSM and then this happens:

 

As I've said to Her on twitter many times, and as anyone can clearly see, the camera does not just Love Miss Tracy, it has a torridly passionate love affair with Her that leaves us all breathless. Her form is exaggerated via Her Womanly Power into this magnificent vision that is simply amazing.

Yet for this sissy, I can't help but admire the beauty beneath all of that blazing Femdom radiance. For me, I love the perfect imperfections in Her when the camera is not there. W/we have never met, yet I would find Her story fascinating to listen to, and how She came to have a soft place in Her heart for us gurls. As amazing as the fetishization of our kinks are, I have always found it most rewarding to learn about what lies beneath, where a Woman's true power originates from. It's those things that truly separate a true natural Domme from those often referred to as "hooker with a whip" types.

In understanding my admiration for Miss Dallas in the context of my sissylife, and how Lady Diva has given me the fertile soil in which to grow and understand myself, I've realized that I've often had a soft spot in my sissy heart for others similar to Miss Tracy. Those along the way who may have been seen by others or themselves as not 'perfect' but who found themselves and became far greater than a label. Mistress Kendra James, Lola Ruin, Queen Arena Rome, and others come to mind. I certainly hope that none of Them take this post as a slight in anyway. That's probably why it took so long for me to compose my thoughts and hopefully share them in a coherent manner.

As a sissy, we live a life long struggle of knowing how far away from Feminine beauty we live most of our days as, so perhaps in my case, those who I see a tiny teeny bit of myself in, and who have blossomed to spectacular fashion, give me hope and inspiration that my own sissy self can find that place too.

Thank You Miss Dallas for filling my sissy heart with admiration and inspiration. I truly hope one day I can listen to Your story in person. I know I would find it fascinating listening to how You arrived .

Sincerely Sissy

Devina

Day 3000 Devoted to Sissy Chastity!

 

Three Thousand Days Ago

That was the last time I selfishly used my sissy clit for my own urges, needs, and desires.

I don't fully remember the switch that flipped in my sissy brain that made me decide it was time to make another longer attempt of sissy chastity to surpass my personal mark of 37 days, but whatever it was, a spiritual awakening perhaps, took me down a road that has forever changed my life as a whole, and how I see myself as a sissy in this world.

My journey under the cloak of Lady Diva Cane and Maitresse Cathie LaDivine as my Femdom spiritual guides, has been nothing short of transformational from inside my soul. I could write volumes as how one's entire world opens up to the power Feminine energy around you when you discard all of your old filthy urges and devote yourself to something better. Women's happiness.

My chastity journey has been physical and mental. Sometimes I'm locked, others not. At the permission of Lady Diva, I am allowed a few time a year to develop my hands free sissygasm techniques, in order to deepen the neurological pathways in my sissy brain to learn how to only achieve pleasure from sissygasms, both physically, visually, auditory, and emotionally.  My devotion to honour Them prevents me from abusing any granted privileges, nor would I ever want to.

Over 3000 days, my entire sexuality has been rewired and reprogrammed. I only find stimulation through Shecock. I can't even think of how long it has been since I fantasized about being with  a Woman that I am unable to please. Truth be told, I do not feel as if I am lacking anything as a result.

Being a sissy means being devoted to serving Women, not pursuing Them.

Being a sissy means I worship Shecock to please and amuse Women

And being a sissy means that is the only path for me 

The past thousand days has gone by incredibly quickly. Unlike the custom locks i giften Lady Diva and Ms Cathie, another thousand days is worth mentioning but i will save larger gifts for more prominent milestones.

For those who think long term chastity is a mountain to tall to climb, I am here to tell you, not only is it possible, the view back to where you began from here is breathtaking.

Happy Chastember to every Dominant Woman who has inspired, encouraged, and congratulated me. My journey is in part, my way of thanking You all. 

Lets all walk together on towards better places for this sissy to be under Your Guidance

 

Love 

Devina 

 

Proving a Point - Thanks to Mistress Nikki Whiplash

 Originally Posted April 6, 2019

Recently, I was lamenting the strife's that Lady Diva was enduring at the hands of those who are very much clueless as to how to properly approach, address, and interact with a Domme. Sadly these frustrations are endured by every Domme alive, most likely, as subbies who allow themselves to think with the little head that only gets blood flow occasionally, rarely take the time to learn the proper manners and skills in how to respectfully and politely reach out to a Domme.

In my own experiences, I've tried to share here what has worked for me to not only foster a very treasured Domme/sissy relationship, but genuine interpersonal friendships with Dominant Women, I once could only admire from afar. Each of these friendships has strengthened my bonds to who I am and choose to be as a sissy submissive. This week, an example of what I've tried to convey took place, and I wish to share it with you.

 

The captivating, and beautiful Domme in the photo above is the world renown Nikki Whiplash. From the moment I discovered who She was, I couldn't help but be fascinated by Her energy, Her personality, and Her tremendously captivating nature of self. She was one of the first people I followed on my twitter account and I've always felt very fortunate on the rare occasion when She has gifted me with a like or an emoji to a tweet of mine. Ms Whiplash surely would be one of the most bombarded Dommes via email and social media, and I've always felt very blessed whenever She would take a small moment to acknowledge me in any way at all. Being that I live an ocean away, I've never thought it proper to email Her or to pester Her in any way that would waster Her time, so I've always been content and happy to continue to admire Her from afar, with a pining to one day share even a nice cup of tea with someone I find so fascinating. 

This week, something very lovely happened when Ms Whiplash put out a tweet that I couldn't help but respond to in a bit of a cheeky manner. That my reply made Her smile and coaxed a bit of a chuckle was all I needed to put a smile on my face that day. If any of us puts a smile on another's face through a tiny effort of our own, then it's a good thing. So I decided to reply with some sincere gratitude that She took a moment of Her valuable time to share with me.

And with that, a few moments later I was off on my day, still smiling quietly to myself at my good fortune, bestowed by Ms Whiplash. As often has been the case in my sissy life, a little while later, a gift of Femdomination came calling and I experienced one of the biggest sissy leaks I've had since my lengthy sissy chastity experience. I was thrilled as I leaked fully limp what would have once in a previous life would have been a rather sizable cumshot. But now in my sissy life my leaks happen more as a result of emotional and mental stimulation as opposed to physical, and I smile broadly with pride each time a sissy leak happens. 

 

And with that I was blessed to have had a tiny chat with someone I've admired for such a long while. It truly made my day! I thanked Ms Whiplash very much and said a few sincere words of admiration that indeed came from the heart, and with that W/we were both off spinning in our own orbits for the remainder of the week. It's important to point out that I did not continue to pester Her for more time and attention. I was enormously GRATEFUL for Her gift of time and attention She chose to give.

As subbies, one of the first profound lessons one can learn is to be fulfilled by what manner of interaction and /or reward a Domme may choose to bestow upon us. Be grateful, stay humble and be open to receive the gifts of Femdomination where and whenever they occur. Ms Whiplash enriched my sissy life by one small act of kindness, and inspired me to share this with others so that they may hopefully find their own gifts of Femdomination in their lives.

Be kind, be polite, be patient, and be humble, and you will experience things you may never have dreamed of.

Thank You Ms Whiplash!

Sincerely Sissy

Devina Cox