Celebrating My 11th Deniversary - My Pussy Free Life

 

Today is a beautiful day in my sissy journey. 11 years pussy free! 11 wonderful years beneath Lady Diva where I haven't contaminated the Female world with my inferior leaking dribble that occasionally oozes from my sissy clit. Another year where my sissy life's journey has changed my entire existence into a humbled subservient  creature who no longer view's Woman in anything but a superior manner.

It's an amazing place to be!

 Women are forced to endure all manners of ugliness from the knuckle dragging male species. The interactions that Lady Diva constantly shares with me, routinely make me shudder with disgust. My continued existence as a sissy in part, endures to counter the wave of male ego driven ugliness. Being a sissy means I will never be rude to Women, I will never be seen as a threat to Women, and I exist to make Women's lives better in any ways that I can.

I don't ever need to pursue Women in a traditional sense. 

I don't have a male ego left, that demands feeding. 

Lady Diva and others have eliminated that part of my psyche, and I am a much better person for it. My life is better in too many ways to share as a result.

 Entering my second decade of being a permanently pussy free sissy is part of my ongoing devotion to Lady Diva, Lady M, and all the Dominant Women who have influenced and shaped my sissy life. It is a small price to pay for being allowed into Their world in a trusted space which I cherish each day.

To be a living example of a male ego crushed into dust, with a sissy flower growing in it's place is one of my proudest accomplishments in my life. 

Don't be afraid to cast aside your old destructive self and embrace the sissy you have always felt like within. Your journey will be worth it and more!

 

Sincerely Sissy

Devina  

 

A Pussy Free Life Lookback: 5 yr Deniversary

 Originally Posted Nov 6, 2019

5 years can sometimes seem like a long time, an eternity for some. Yet 5 years can also go by in a blink of an eye. Today is my 5 Year Deniversary. It marks the last time I ever had a sexual encounter in what was my old life, masquerading as a male, fooling myself and those around me.

Sadly this morning as I write this, I am pressed for time having to catch a flight in a little while, but I can't help but feel a sense of immense pride in my devotion not only to my sissy life, but in my complete transitioning away from any biological sexual urges I once had towards the fully embraced needs and desires as a sissy sub.

It's been 5 years since I made a conscious decision to walk away from my old life and accept who and what I was inside. That gurl that had been always trying to express herself and seek her own identity, and it's been a journey full of amazing firsts, and points of no return. On my Day 862 in sissy chastity, I smile proudly as I look back on how far I've come (or not cum) ;)

In those 5 years, I have not been found wanting, and my love for Women has only increased to levels I've never known before. But in embracing Shecock as complete fulfillment of my physical desires, I've reached that place where I always knew I was in life's pecking order, even before I knew where and what that was. I plan to expand on that much more in the coming days, as I've been reflecting on my life, and my relationship with Women, going back to childhood.

 

But for today, I'm a proud locked sissy, looking forward to new milestones ahead in 2020.

Cheers Everyone!

 

Author's Update: In less than 2 weeks will be my 11th Deniversary. Needless to say my pussy free lifestyle has now become a permanent part of my sissy life! 

Devina 

PF Lifestyle Lookback - 4 Years: No Pussy For This Sissy

 Originally Posted Nov 6, 2018

 

Tonight marks a pretty major milestone for lil ol sissy me. 4 years pussy free. 4 years of no sex with any Woman, unless She's been wearing a strapon and pounding my sissy asspussy. I didn't set out for it to occur by plan. It just sort of happened with my slow and gradual transitioning into a fully bottom sissy for Shecock. But now that I've made it this far, I realize that I'm very much ok. Life is much less stressful trying to live a double life of wanting to express your sissy self on one hand, and playing the phony game of acting like a normal male creature. It was never something I was ever good at anyway, vanilla relationships that is. So to not have to worry about all that has been a blessing of sorts.

 I mean it's not as if I've stopped being a sexual being! Far from it. I've sucked gorgeous Shecocks, taken facials, had my sissy asspussy fucked sore and raw by strapons and TGirl cocks of all sizes. I've worshipped pussy, being smothered and more. I've been a dirty slut in a lot of ways, like licking ass, and swallowing Shecum, so in no way does being pussy free for 4 years mean I've been deprived of anything! In fact my entire world has been opened to so much more than I ever could have dreamed.

 

 

Now being locked in sissy chastity, I can see how my slow and eventual conditioning has brought me to a place where there simply isn't anything left of the male vessel that once forced Devina to stay locked away from my own true self. I love Women far more now than I ever have, in fact. When you remove the ugliness of the pursuit of sex, and embrace your inner sissy self as an even greater sexual being, you experience sexual gratification in any number of ways. As I've learned, being fucked is far more satisfying than getting laid. Give me Shecock any day!

 

So here's to 4 years in the rear view mirror of my old life I was clinging onto, even as I embraced my true sissy self. In a few days another sissy milestone of mine is approaching to celebrate. Embrace your sissy life gurls, there is so much that awaits you!

Devina 

My Tenth Deniversary!

 

Ten Years

Ten long wonderful years.

Pussy free lifestyle for me is not just an idea. I have lived it, and today embark on day one of my 11th year pussy free. Looking back it doesn't really seem like that long ago, but so much of my sissy life has changed for the better, so maybe that's why it doesn't feel like a negative in any way. It's a happy occasion!

Being a sissy is easy on paper. Even easier inside your fantasies. When we all start our journey it's so easy to put our sissy selves back in the closet when we feel the rush of temporary Femininity and fetish, isn't it?  But every sissy wants more, needs more, craves more, and that's the very definition of the Silk Trap.

But as the sissy life took hold and became my actual life, the ability of trying to maintain any sort of vanilla relationships or sexual ones, began to fail miserably. I no longer was able to maintain a sexual performance without visualizing being with TGirls and being fucked by Shecock. When I realized this, I knew my life was changing in ways that went beyond sissy play, and began a journey that would remove me from my old facade of a normal life into a new paradigm.

My last sexual encounter was one I look back on in full shame, and in many ways it was a fitting end to ever having sex with Women. I was on a working trip to southeast Asia and our hosts took our group to a strip club / brothel where we all were comped. 

So my last ever sexual encounter was with an Asian prostitute. My last act as a male was degrading a Women who was in Her profession I'm sure not as a career path. Upon returning home I felt a horrible shame over the part of my old self that was desperate to cling to a male life and my shame was driven by my emerging sissy self conscious that couldn't reconcile what I had done. I didn't make a concrete decision that moment to stop pursuing sex with Women, but it slowly morphed into my own rejection of my old self out of shame.  

I can't recall when I even realized that a significant time had passed without having sex, but I did know that I was diving much deeper into my sissy desires that felt more natural. more real and with far less shame.

I began having more and more sex as a bottom with Trans Women and with each encounter I was finding more fulfillment and satisfaction as a bottom. Shecock was my focus and I had zero issues with sexual excitement and no such problems that I was having with my old vanilla sexual failures.

So I simply began to focus more on what made me happy and moved away from my failures as a male who was no longer feeling anything but shame in trying to please a Woman with my ever increasingly flaccid sissy clit.

As the years went on I began to realize with each year my embarrassing milestone and instead of shame, I began to embrace the idea that being pussy free meant I was never going to shame a Woman again. So today we all arrive to 10 years of not defiling another Woman, 10 years of never worrying about being a sexual failure to a Woman with my pathetic sissy clit. It's a beautiful milestone!

I am a sissy

I don't "fuck", I get "fucked".

Shecock is my sexual desire.

Women are my Love.

Loving Women means never exposing my old ugly self to Them again.

My name is Devina Cox, a 10+ year pussy free sissy.

And I am happy!

My 9th Deniversary - Pussy Free

 

On this day 9 years ago I was on a business trip to southeast Asia, and our hosts as can be customary decided to take our group out for some evening "entertainment". As one may figure out, we were taken to a titty bar brothel where a short time later I was in a pleasure room with a very pretty Asian Lady who I didn't know at the time, would be the last Woman I would enter sexually.

In my last real relationship which had failed 18 months earlier, I was already discovering that in order to climax during sex, I had began visualizing being penetrated by a TGirl or a Domme with a strapon. After that relationship failed, I hadn't bothered even pursuing another Woman. Something was changing and my desires physically had began a metamorphic shift to what is now my reality. My sexual attraction had changed and I would soon accept that I was a true bottom to TGirls and Women, mentally and physically.

What took place in that Asian bath house was a mechanical act, that was very much devoid of any intimacy, no passion, and I recognized that in that moment I was the ugliness of every selfish male act I have ever perpetuated towards any Woman previously.  Upon completion, I was quietly filled with self loathing for my part played in the exploitation of this pretty Asian Woman.  That feeling stayed with me upon returning home and has stayed with me to this day.

I didn't make a plan to embark on a pussy free lifestyle, but it sort of happened until I realized to what extent it did once I began my sissy chastity journey more than 3 years later.  Now I take pride in knowing I no longer am that person. I rejoice that the ugly part of who I was, will no longer defile any Woman, and I take comfort in knowing my sissy clit will likely never enter another Woman ever again.

So today I begin my march towards being pussy free for a decade. I can't wait to reach that goal, and each year that goes by I can't help but quietly hope in my own way, I atone to that Woman in that Asian bath house. 

Devina