My 9th Deniversary - Pussy Free

 

On this day 9 years ago I was on a business trip to southeast Asia, and our hosts as can be customary decided to take our group out for some evening "entertainment". As one may figure out, we were taken to a titty bar brothel where a short time later I was in a pleasure room with a very pretty Asian Lady who I didn't know at the time, would be the last Woman I would enter sexually.

In my last real relationship which had failed 18 months earlier, I was already discovering that in order to climax during sex, I had began visualizing being penetrated by a TGirl or a Domme with a strapon. After that relationship failed, I hadn't bothered even pursuing another Woman. Something was changing and my desires physically had began a metamorphic shift to what is now my reality. My sexual attraction had changed and I would soon accept that I was a true bottom to TGirls and Women, mentally and physically.

What took place in that Asian bath house was a mechanical act, that was very much devoid of any intimacy, no passion, and I recognized that in that moment I was the ugliness of every selfish male act I have ever perpetuated towards any Woman previously.  Upon completion, I was quietly filled with self loathing for my part played in the exploitation of this pretty Asian Woman.  That feeling stayed with me upon returning home and has stayed with me to this day.

I didn't make a plan to embark on a pussy free lifestyle, but it sort of happened until I realized to what extent it did once I began my sissy chastity journey more than 3 years later.  Now I take pride in knowing I no longer am that person. I rejoice that the ugly part of who I was, will no longer defile any Woman, and I take comfort in knowing my sissy clit will likely never enter another Woman ever again.

So today I begin my march towards being pussy free for a decade. I can't wait to reach that goal, and each year that goes by I can't help but quietly hope in my own way, I atone to that Woman in that Asian bath house. 

Devina