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There Was Really No Other Choice

 

Early stages of Devina

I've been thinking back lately to pivotal moments in my sissy life, where I came to major crossroads and chose a path that left me no return. One I always look back fondly now is coming to the conclusion that I needed to pursue my submission from a sissy perspective, as continuing to be a panty boi male subbie was a a path of diminishing returns.

Since I've always thought of myself as a bit of a lone wolf type, it didn't make much sense to carry on in any male submissive role as beyond the foundational training Mistress Morganna had provided, simply to be one male subbie in a filthy sea of icky males. Being a sissy provided many things to my soul, but it also provided a much less crowded place to try and discover myself and to hopefully grow. I had no idea back then what I would even become, as I certainly never imagined it would be where I am today. But I knew I needed to find someplace else in the BDSM world and admitting to myself and to Mistress Morganna and then Lady Diva Cane that I didn't just want to be a sissy, I needed to be a sissy in order to discover myself.

 

In realizing my inner sissy and being able to have the opportunity for Devina to blossom and grow, my love for Women has only deepened as my sissy journey has continued. Even when I reached the point of acceptance that vanilla sex with Women was becoming of less and less value in my life, and admitting that my desires for Shecock was becoming more and more of value in my life, my sincere love of Women only grew as it moved away from sexual and more towards spiritual. My empathy began to increase, my desire to bond spiritually with Women in the special ways that Women do, became noticeable to me. I realized that I was much more a sissy lesbian than anything, even if I could no longer muster the energy to chase Women in any vanilla capacity. No, relationships with Women would now be unique, and from a place where I was always a bottom to Them, and that was something that I would discover was very fulfilling.

 

But it was sissy chastity in many ways that brought it all into focus. No longer consumed with thoughts of self pleasuring that thing between my legs, chastity brought things far more into focus of what my emotional needs and spiritual needs are. The eventual experience of my first hands free sissygasm only served to reinforce that my decision was right all along. There has been no experience that could compare as a male to the sensations felt experiencing my first true sissygasm, and the joy it brought me to know that I could finally cum like a Woman. It only brought me closer to the Women I'm able to share my sissylife with, which is so wonderful.

Dominant Women tend to have special places in Their world for Their sissy gurls, and the more you show them that you want to be in that place, the more you earn your way into that place, the more magical and wonderful it becomes to find yourself within it. For me there was no other logical choice. One could say being a sissy was my destiny...

 

Sincerely Sissy

Devina 

3300 Days in Sissy Chastity!

 Today I happily celebrate 3300 days in sissy chastity. The life changing effect that long term chastity has had on me is incomparable to other aspects of my sissy life's journey. I used to obsess over 25 day milestones, but now it's such a part of my day to day life, that hundreds of days can go by and I don't feel the need anymore to mark the signposts.

I love my sissy life completely absent of the ugliness of an old male like of wanking and spilling gross male seed in the world. I DO love my sissy leaks, dribbles, and wetting of my panties when my sissy brain obsesses over Shecock.

Overlooked by many is the reduction of stress in one's life when their brain never has to devote energy to how to "get off". 

Life is better Locked!  

Bois Will Be Gurls Vol 171

If You Knew You Wouldn't Cum...

 

  When the majority of us discover kink as male subbies, we do so looking for a different way to get off that bends our minds, hence the term Kink. We pretty much all start out as kink players. Some of us stay there contently, while others drift between kink and deeper levels of submission, while fewer still begin a journey into submission that they may not even know they are on, but one day realize they are far from where they started.

My initial steps into submission and kink play was no different. Things began to change once I felt safe enough to trust Mistress Morganna (Lady M) and later Lady Diva Cane. Once I began to confess my inner desires to explore and develop the inner sissy within that was there from my earliest days, a new world was created. It's like finding yourself in a room with many doors and you don't know where any of them lead, but YOU know that you need to go somewhere.

Being less than three weeks away from my 9th Chastiversary, I have learned a very valuable lesson in my sissy chastity experience; the act of me ever cumming in front of my Mistress or any Dominant Woman is completely inconsequential. It has zero importance. As my sissy clit shrinks and my sissy leaks become less and less frequent, I'm thrilled at the fact that almost 9 years in, my sissy clit is completely useless to any Woman. The only purpose it serves now is a constant reinforcement that I must continue to learn how to achieve orgasms from a mental aspect first, then transferring that energy into my p-spot. My sissyclit does not need, nor should ever receive attention in any manner that would resemble masturbation.

 

Sharing this monumental self realization with Lady Diva was a huge moment for me. Why should I burden Her with my filthy urges? Why should any Domme really cater to subbies nasty urges to spunk and make a mess. Wouldn't that time be better spent pleasing your Mistress?

But wherever you kneel in the kink world, could you fathom seeing a Domme and knowing that you will have zero expectations of getting off physically? I mean you still might, right? A powerful Dominant Woman has many abilities in Her toolbox to have you achieve all sorts of physical feats, but if you knew that your best odds would be 50/50, would you continue? Would it be a turn off to your selfish arrogant male ego that your needs wouldn't be attended to? Or perhaps would you be intrigued in what you might learn about yourself and your Domme in putting Her needs before all of yours?

 

Maybe it's my sissy nature and my growing desires to learn to try as best as possible to cum in a Female way, but there is something incredibly fulfilling in reaching a place in my sissy life where I no longer care if I leak, squirt or dribble. The smile on a Domme's face is far more rewarding. The pride of ownership that Lady Diva has in my sissy clit gives me a sense of sissy purpose. It's a feeling I never could have possibly discovered if I had remained merely a kink player.

Whether you are ready or not to ever get to that plane of submissive existence, you should at least ask yourself from time to time, "Is my cumming more important than My Mistresses' satisfaction?"

You might be surprised where you one day find yourself...

 

As a Shecock loving sissy, the other reason why I never need to cum again is that my purpose in life as a sissy is ultimately to make Shecocks cum. Again, my sissy dribbles out of my limp sissyclit mean nothing compared to devoting your abilities to make a beautiful rock hard glorious Shecock explode, preferably all over your face!

 

Feeling the sensation of a Shecock explode in your mouth and/or all over your face brings a sense of accomplishment like no other. You have brought beautiful physical pleasure to another, and superior person, and they have rewarded you with everything you really need. Feeling Her cum on your face cements your place in life, and gives your sissy life true purpose. When you find this nirvana, it's essential to share this with as many Women, both Dominant and vanilla as possible. Let that cum wash away any sense of shame and never look back at what you used to be.

When you find all that, why is your sissyclit even relevant?

It's not.

Sincerely Sissy

Devina 

Chastiversary Month!

 

 Since it's commonplace now to celebrate birthday months, I thought I would begin the festivities instead to celebrate my upcoming 9th Chastiversary. In just under one month I will celebrate Lady Diva Cane's achievement of eliminating a sissy sub who often spunked her inferior DNA in a very unlady-like mannor, and instead has created a docile sissy who no longer touches her sissy-clit for such ugly displays.

 Instead Lady Diva has created a sissy creature who no longer needs or desires to ever revert back to the ugliness of "jacking off", by creating a deep seated need and desire to only ever obtain pleasure via the correct way of sexual release. A Sissygasm

 

You don't need to tug away at your minuscule sissyclit which serves no purpose in ever pleasuring a Woman, when you have a p-spot. A sissygasm however will certainly make your Domme smile, and make other Women laugh in amusement and in the end that should be your reward. Tugging away at your little limp sissy clitty is simply another selfish leftover act of malehood that you must eliminate.

Looking forward to 9 years locked!

Devina 

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