When the majority of us discover kink as male subbies, we do so looking for a different way to get off that bends our minds, hence the term Kink. We pretty much all start out as kink players. Some of us stay there contently, while others drift between kink and deeper levels of submission, while fewer still begin a journey into submission that they may not even know they are on, but one day realize they are far from where they started.
My initial steps into submission and kink play was no different. Things began to change once I felt safe enough to trust Mistress Morganna (Lady M) and later Lady Diva Cane. Once I began to confess my inner desires to explore and develop the inner sissy within that was there from my earliest days, a new world was created. It's like finding yourself in a room with many doors and you don't know where any of them lead, but YOU know that you need to go somewhere.
Being less than three weeks away from my 9th Chastiversary, I have learned a very valuable lesson in my sissy chastity experience; the act of me ever cumming in front of my Mistress or any Dominant Woman is completely inconsequential. It has zero importance. As my sissy clit shrinks and my sissy leaks become less and less frequent, I'm thrilled at the fact that almost 9 years in, my sissy clit is completely useless to any Woman. The only purpose it serves now is a constant reinforcement that I must continue to learn how to achieve orgasms from a mental aspect first, then transferring that energy into my p-spot. My sissyclit does not need, nor should ever receive attention in any manner that would resemble masturbation.
Sharing this monumental self realization with Lady Diva was a huge moment for me. Why should I burden Her with my filthy urges? Why should any Domme really cater to subbies nasty urges to spunk and make a mess. Wouldn't that time be better spent pleasing your Mistress?
But wherever you kneel in the kink world, could you fathom seeing a Domme and knowing that you will have zero expectations of getting off physically? I mean you still might, right? A powerful Dominant Woman has many abilities in Her toolbox to have you achieve all sorts of physical feats, but if you knew that your best odds would be 50/50, would you continue? Would it be a turn off to your selfish arrogant male ego that your needs wouldn't be attended to? Or perhaps would you be intrigued in what you might learn about yourself and your Domme in putting Her needs before all of yours?
Maybe it's my sissy nature and my growing desires to learn to try as best as possible to cum in a Female way, but there is something incredibly fulfilling in reaching a place in my sissy life where I no longer care if I leak, squirt or dribble. The smile on a Domme's face is far more rewarding. The pride of ownership that Lady Diva has in my sissy clit gives me a sense of sissy purpose. It's a feeling I never could have possibly discovered if I had remained merely a kink player.
Whether you are ready or not to ever get to that plane of submissive existence, you should at least ask yourself from time to time, "Is my cumming more important than My Mistresses' satisfaction?"
You might be surprised where you one day find yourself...
As a Shecock loving sissy, the other reason why I never need to cum again is that my purpose in life as a sissy is ultimately to make Shecocks cum. Again, my sissy dribbles out of my limp sissyclit mean nothing compared to devoting your abilities to make a beautiful rock hard glorious Shecock explode, preferably all over your face!
Feeling the sensation of a Shecock explode in your mouth and/or all over your face brings a sense of accomplishment like no other. You have brought beautiful physical pleasure to another, and superior person, and they have rewarded you with everything you really need. Feeling Her cum on your face cements your place in life, and gives your sissy life true purpose. When you find this nirvana, it's essential to share this with as many Women, both Dominant and vanilla as possible. Let that cum wash away any sense of shame and never look back at what you used to be.
When you find all that, why is your sissyclit even relevant?
It's not.
Sincerely Sissy
Devina