Locktober 3400th!

 

Happy Locktober 3400th to me! My sissy chastity journey continues to new unimaginable milestones and I do not regret leaving everything behind of what I once thought I knew about self pleasure and sexuality. I remain haste in honour of Lady Diva Cane, Lady Morganna, Maitresse Cathie LaDivine and so many others who helped me realize my true self. The march to 3500 begins now!

Making Yourself Pretty Starts With the Little Things

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The Goal of Locktober and Beyond

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Chastember: The Time to Prepare.

 Chastember is almost over. Have you been using your time wisely? Have you secured your chastity cage, or two? Will you be ready to present yourself before your Domme with your sissy clit already locked for Her, ahead of Locktober? Or will you be playing catch up and already be a disappointment from day one?

This is what Chastember has been about. The time to prepare a time to experiment and a time to get your mind right. The Chastity season has already begun and runs until the end of the year. For some sissies like me, it has not stopped for over 3000+ days

 Sissy chastity has truly transformed my life as a sissy and beyond. It can do the same for you if you truly embrace the journey. C'mon aboard, we have lots of room on the locked sissy ho train!

Happy Chastember!

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Chastity Season Continues! Welcome Nocumber!

 

Let us welcome the 3rd month of the Chastity season. Perhaps you experimented for a day or two in Chastember and geared yourself up for a full Locktober lockdown of your itty bitty clitty? But now that Lockober has ended and you might think you can go back to your old ways, here comes the most important month in the chastity season; Nocumber. 

Why?

 

Have you noticed how pleased your Domme has been in your willingness to lock away that silly appendage between your legs? Does Her smiles mean something to you? Wouldn't you want to give Her another gift of accepting another 30 days locked up for Her enjoyment? You should.

Real submission involves accepting your role beneath a Woman, and showing Her that your gratification is now linked to HER gratification is a sign that your level of submissiveness is deepening. When you first tried chastity, I'm sure you thought that a day or two or three was an insane amount of time. I know I did. But if you have come to day 31 or longer, what's another 4 weeks, really?

 Maybe you've been lucky enough to experience your first sissy leak? Wasn't that amazing?? Did the sensation resonate deeply with your inner girl? Wouldn't it be awesome to cum that way all the time? You are so very close to a sissy breakthrough that you may never have thought possible. So embrace Nocumber and push yourself to new heights. You won't regret it. I haven't, as today is Nocumber 3050th for me :)))

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Locktober 850th - Thanksgiving Thoughts

 Originally Posted Oct 26, 2019

 

 Today marked 850 days since I made a quiet commitment to deepen my submissiveness to heights unimaginable and pledged to shatter the boundaries of what I had achieved in sissy chastity. There was no loud proclamation to Lady Diva, or no ego driven claims on social media. None of that took place. I simply wanted to prove to myself that as in every other aspect of my sissy life that has been under the guidance of Lady Diva, Mistress Morganna (Lady M) before Her, that I could achieve something rewarding to Them both and every other influential Domme I have had the pleasure of meeting, sessioning, and communicating with.

There was a time, and I remember it well, where I could not possibly understand why anyone would undergo chastity. That was back when my male ego was very healthy, very toxic, and thought it had "my kinks" well under control. But today, Lady Diva reminded me, that Lady M began to fuck that male ego out of my psyche with Her strapon. One inch, one thrust, one lesson at a time.

 

You never forget the first time you surrender to a Woman's cock. You can never go back from that moment. You can either fight a war within yourself where your once manly ego is filled with denial, or you can begin to accept what brought you to that place at the end of a Woman's cock. It's not something that happens easily, and it can take a long time. The world of kink, and BDSM is filled with traps, and pitfalls if you aren't able to get in touch with your inner feelings and emotions. It's even more difficult to find a Domme that is willing and experienced enough to see your potential, guide you to a place where you can discover the real you, and then be gracious enough to create a space where you can finally grow.

Accepting that there was a Feminine sissy inside of me that needed to be set free was a massive truth bomb to myself, but once detonated, it created a whole new opening to a world I couldn't dream of, even in my most bizarre fantasies at that time. As Day 850 in sissy chastity winds down, I once again am filled with floods of thought and reflection on my journey. Where it began, the twists and turns along the way, and those major moments or forks in the road where I had to make hard choices..

 My true point of no return was taking a leap of faith into bottoming for a Trans Domme for the first time. A Woman's strapon is a thing of beauty and affirms your place beneath Her, but a real throbbing Shecock is an obliteration of everything you thought you once knew about yourself. There is nothing like it than can be described in words.

My path to Shecock was the culmination of what I thought was back then, a series of of unconnected life experiences, going back to childhood. Looking back now, I can slowly connect all the little dots to the bigger dots to eventually the major sign posts. It's a fascinating look back into my own life to ask oneself why my relationships with any of the Women in my life previous to & embracing my sissy life, always felt off, awkward, or that there was always something missing. My love for Women was never in question, but my fulfillment of being around their energy was always different. Not noticeable to the outside world, but always noticeable to me. As Lady Diva and I would discuss much later on, it was why I truly see myself as a sissy lesbian, and know it to be true in my soul.

 

But when my budding sissy life, my insatiable growing love of Shecock, and my true submissive nature finally began to come together as one, that's when the mental, and physiological changes began to occur and put me on the path I am on now.

Lady Diva encouraged me to find a place where I could express myself as who I was, and what brought me joy and that was as Devina, a bottom sissy for Shecock, both Trans and Female. Each time Devina has opened her asspussy up for Shecock, it's an affirmation that this is who I was meant to be, and that affirmation has now extended far beyond the physical realm and into the emotional and spiritual ones as well. What sissy chastity has brought to me now is the opportunity or clarity, in eliminating the old urges of my old self. With no time out rewards, or permissions to cum via the old habits of masturbation, I've discovered what gifts a sissy can give back to those who nurture her.

 

Every single day, I can proudly give Lady Diva, Lady M, Maitresse Cathie, and every other amazing Domme in any aspect of my sissy life the gift of Them knowing they have completely changed a once arrogant male chauvinistic pig into a Shecock loving sissy cum slut, who no longer has any desire to achieve personal sexual gratifications, without being taken by Shecock for Their pleasure. What drips out of my sissyclit is of no importance to anyone, except the personal pride of experiencing sissy leaks, fully limp as a sissy should. I beam with warmth knowing the Lady Diva, if She chooses, can speak of my devotion with a sense of pride, and an assurance of knowing She has trained me, and remade me to not stray, because the guilt of knowing would be too much. Even when I can't serve before Her, She holds my submission each and every day.

 

What is of no use to me in my locked and shrinking sissy clit is the only real gift of value that I have to Her and all Dominant Women. It's an amazing place to find oneself in. It truly is. The best part is that Day 851 begins tomorrow... Happy Locktober, bring on Nocumber!

Sincerely Sissy

Devina Cox 

#Locktober is a Doorway to a Whole New World

 Originally Posted Oct 6, 2018

 

Long before there was a Devina, and long before there was a panty boi subbie that would evolve into Devina, there was an oddly curious me that looked at images and illustrations of chastity with a complete bewilderment. I never understood it, and looking back now, how could I? When a male creature sees chastity, they see a denial of their basic filthy male urges. Others will see it as a fetish experience to delay by a period of time with teasing, those same basic filthy urges. But many years later from my first bewilderment of BDSM/Chastity, and as a devoted sissy who as of today has been locked for 1 year, 3 months, 1 week and 1 day; sissy chastity is not a denial of anything.

It's a doorway to a new world.

 

No matter if you are a subbie or a sissy, when you experience chastity for the first time for any period of time beyond a session with a Domme, whatever you have left of your emasculated male ego (EME), rebels angrily. Your first hours, days, and perhaps week is filled with your urges and desires of your old ugly male life on overload because your EME knows this is the beginning of the true end for him. Even if locked for one day, your curiosity will push you to see if you could do two, or three, and so on.

My first chastity experiment was for 48 hours and even when complete, I was already thinking of what it could be like to go longer, what type of device would one need to go a week, or two or more? How would my Domme feel if I could make a month? And then the secret behind Chastity began to reveal itself to me..

 

With each mini milestone I made in sissy chastity, Lady Diva would be so pleased, and encouraged me to push past the physical restraints to realize that each day spent in sissy chastity was unlocking this giant door to another level of my sissy life! Each day you live in chastity moves you further and further past your old life you wanted to escape in the first place when you give in to submission to a Woman. It's impossible to see that until you offer a gift to Femdomination, and like so many ways before, it remains true. Your gifts of submission are returned to you in ways beyond your dreams!

When I made 37 days in sissy chastity as my previous best before my current journey of 15 months and counting, my sissy brain was still wired to experience physical pleasure by sissy clit stimulation. Removing access to one part of the body forces the brain to re-route new neural pathways to compensate. The physical pleasures I once experienced regularly were now closed off and new ones were created. Experiencing new physical and emotional sensations when one is past their physical development stages of youth is an amazing journey that is difficult to describe to those who haven't experienced it themselves.

 

In chastity, you no longer penetrate anything. This is an enormous physiological and psychological evolution. YOU, are what is penetrated! Sex begins to change in a dramatic way to the point where the longer you serve in chastity for Her, the more happy She is with your gift, the more you experience your reward of being penetrated. Once you begin to associate being penetrated with the only source of sexual gratification you will receive, your brain and body will begin to redefine your senses, your pleasures, and your urges. This I have experienced first hand and sharing those thoughts with Lady Diva as a further emotional bonding moment between Superior and sissy.

At some point during months 6-8 in sissy chastity, I began having sexual dreams never experienced before. What at one time in my life were "normal" sexual dreams, now had evolved to where I was now experiencing dreams of being penetrated by Shecock of both varieties. Domme's strapons and hot Shecock and the sensations of my asspussy being filled by them created a release of happy hormones in my brain that on two occasions caused me to wake up to a sissy leak in my bed. This was a massive seismic shift upon realizing what was now happening within me! Chastity wasn't about closing something off, it had unleashed something inside me, something that was amazing. I've now arrived to a place where conscious and subconscious thoughts of sex are 100% as a bottom. 

 

Even more, I've realized that my enduring devotion to sissy chastity is a 24/7 gift to Lady Diva and Maitresse Cathie. No matter the time or circumstance, when it pleases Them, They know that in that moment, they possess a piece of a sissy that is causing a deeper evolution of another human who simply wanted to be better that the male vessel that once brought them to the world of BDSM. Even though I still have to deal with the vessel, what it holds is the creation of those Goddeses that took the lump of clay that was me, first kneeling in a hotel room doorway in front of Mistress Morganna, and continue to create an evolving piece of sissy art by Their hands.

Locktober can be a celebration of something life changing for you as well. It should never really be about denial if you approach it the right way. I have never once asked for a release, and will not, because I know now that the more I give, the greater the reward I receive will be. That is the lesson of Locktober.

Sincerely Sissy

Devina