500 000!

 

When gewgel abruptly killed off my 11 yrs blog with no recourse, I was gutted. I thought of quitting, but my reason for my blog was to permanently make my sissy journey something that was undeniable. So I chose to start anew.

What followed was the realization that my existence was being shadow banned from the web actively by gewgel, and to a lesser degree other search engines. In fact it still is to a large degree. Behind the scenes I have seen in my blog stats how gewgek would regularly scrape off view stats to suppress this sissy, but I was undeterred. Little by little I would find wins.

This week I hit 500k views, and while it may seem low after 2 years and especially since my old bloh would see about 800k per year, I feel like I've been winning again. My numbers are increasing and the damn has broke a litte with the gewgel getapo. More of my blog is discoverable online.

So to those who have refound, newly found and have been kind enough to link my blog onto their own, thank you! 

Proving a Point - Thanks to Mistress Nikki Whiplash

 Originally Posted April 6, 2019

Recently, I was lamenting the strife's that Lady Diva was enduring at the hands of those who are very much clueless as to how to properly approach, address, and interact with a Domme. Sadly these frustrations are endured by every Domme alive, most likely, as subbies who allow themselves to think with the little head that only gets blood flow occasionally, rarely take the time to learn the proper manners and skills in how to respectfully and politely reach out to a Domme.

In my own experiences, I've tried to share here what has worked for me to not only foster a very treasured Domme/sissy relationship, but genuine interpersonal friendships with Dominant Women, I once could only admire from afar. Each of these friendships has strengthened my bonds to who I am and choose to be as a sissy submissive. This week, an example of what I've tried to convey took place, and I wish to share it with you.

 

The captivating, and beautiful Domme in the photo above is the world renown Nikki Whiplash. From the moment I discovered who She was, I couldn't help but be fascinated by Her energy, Her personality, and Her tremendously captivating nature of self. She was one of the first people I followed on my twitter account and I've always felt very fortunate on the rare occasion when She has gifted me with a like or an emoji to a tweet of mine. Ms Whiplash surely would be one of the most bombarded Dommes via email and social media, and I've always felt very blessed whenever She would take a small moment to acknowledge me in any way at all. Being that I live an ocean away, I've never thought it proper to email Her or to pester Her in any way that would waster Her time, so I've always been content and happy to continue to admire Her from afar, with a pining to one day share even a nice cup of tea with someone I find so fascinating. 

This week, something very lovely happened when Ms Whiplash put out a tweet that I couldn't help but respond to in a bit of a cheeky manner. That my reply made Her smile and coaxed a bit of a chuckle was all I needed to put a smile on my face that day. If any of us puts a smile on another's face through a tiny effort of our own, then it's a good thing. So I decided to reply with some sincere gratitude that She took a moment of Her valuable time to share with me.

And with that, a few moments later I was off on my day, still smiling quietly to myself at my good fortune, bestowed by Ms Whiplash. As often has been the case in my sissy life, a little while later, a gift of Femdomination came calling and I experienced one of the biggest sissy leaks I've had since my lengthy sissy chastity experience. I was thrilled as I leaked fully limp what would have once in a previous life would have been a rather sizable cumshot. But now in my sissy life my leaks happen more as a result of emotional and mental stimulation as opposed to physical, and I smile broadly with pride each time a sissy leak happens. 

 

And with that I was blessed to have had a tiny chat with someone I've admired for such a long while. It truly made my day! I thanked Ms Whiplash very much and said a few sincere words of admiration that indeed came from the heart, and with that W/we were both off spinning in our own orbits for the remainder of the week. It's important to point out that I did not continue to pester Her for more time and attention. I was enormously GRATEFUL for Her gift of time and attention She chose to give.

As subbies, one of the first profound lessons one can learn is to be fulfilled by what manner of interaction and /or reward a Domme may choose to bestow upon us. Be grateful, stay humble and be open to receive the gifts of Femdomination where and whenever they occur. Ms Whiplash enriched my sissy life by one small act of kindness, and inspired me to share this with others so that they may hopefully find their own gifts of Femdomination in their lives.

Be kind, be polite, be patient, and be humble, and you will experience things you may never have dreamed of.

Thank You Ms Whiplash!

Sincerely Sissy

Devina Cox

Sissy Archives: Locked 700 Days and Counting

 Originally Posted May 28, 2019

 Today marks a proud milestone for me. 700 days in sissy chastity. 700 days with no stimulation of my sissy clit. 700 days with no release except my natural sissy leaks. 700 days to honour all the Dominant Women in my life that I hold near and dear. 1 Year, 11 Months.

I could never have believed it possible, but through Femdomination, everything is possible.

I now embark on my Chastiversary month looking ahead to the 2 year mark next month. Each milestone still blows my sissy brain to bits.

The best part of my sissy chastity journey is that even when not in a device for periods of time, I no longer even WANT to play with my sissy clit. Seriously. The thought of how doing something so foolish after transforming my mind and body this long, never mind the disappointment that would fall upon Lady Diva and Maitresse Cathie should I slip would be something I simply could not bear.

 

The only real gift I can offer Lady Diva and Maitresse Cathie in return for all they have bestowed upon me is my continued dedication and the physiological changes that are occurring, rendering my sissy clit slowly and most certainly more and more flaccid and useless. In the last 6-8 months I can count on one hand the number of times I've managed to experienced a turgid sissy clit enough to cause discomfort in my CB6000s or Holy Trainer.

The longer one gives themselves to something greater than themselves, the less consequential the thing they sacrificed is, and the more meaningful the road ahead becomes. I look forward to the milestone Lady Diva has discussed with me and I want nothing more than to deliver that to both Her and Maitresse Cathie. Before I reach that, my second chastiversary will occur. One year each in honour of the two Women who have encouraged, reinforced, and give me strength and confidence to be the best sissy I can possibly be in any way that I can. I get misty eyed at their joy and pride as day after day, week after week, month after month, and soon year after year has receded in the rear view mirror, putting my old world behind me as I connect with the real sissy me, more and more each day.

 

Tomorrow begins a new journey to my 2nd sissy chastiversary. Today I beam with pride at how far I have come by not cumming at all!

 

Author's Note:

Since this post I have happily exceeded 4 times that amount and am days away from another massive milestone. Looking back at my sissy chastity journey like this makes my heart swell with pride that my sissy life has brought me so far.

Love Devina 

#Chastember is Here. You Know What to Do!

 

 As the song says, "It's the Most Wonderful Time...of the Year"  The Chastity Season is upon us! 

There was a time in my sissy life when I couldn't ever see myself being a proponent of chastity. At that time I couldn't understand how it could ever fit into who Devina was at that time. The problem was that I had not begun to evolve psychologically as a sissy, where I had yet to understand and embrace what physiological changes were to come that would allow me to get to a place where not only was sissy chastity possible, but an essential step in becoming the sissy I needed to be.

Like many early barriers in my sissy journey, I started to learn that sissy chastity was another barrier that stood in my way, and once the curiosity got the best of me, I purchased my first CB6000S (smallest of course) and began experimenting. What stood out immediately was how my sissy clit looked when locked. And it was then I began to realize that the art form of being a sissy in chastity was moreso what being locked represented than what it denied. Being locked was a further relinquishing of what remaining fragments of influence my emasculated male ego (EME) was clinging onto. I needed to change that.

 

My first endurance of chastity began with what was then, seemingly excruciatingly long goals: 3 days. As I write this now, being in sissy chastity for 1 year, 2 months, and 4 days, I can't help but laugh at the absurdity of that first goal, yet it was crucial. For a sissy to develop and flourish, her journey is a series of small steps over time until one becomes so far away from where they first started, that they truly are now a new person.

So 3 days was achieved. Then a few weeks later I managed to get to 11. Then later 15 days, each time with the encouragement of Lady Diva and Her positive reinforcement providing me the essential energy I needed to reward Her with my efforts. Then I managed to hit 37 days and was quite proud of myself.

The decision to attempt something longer came with another sissy evolution within me. The commitment to myself that I only wanted to experience what sexual gratification was like in as Womanly manner as possible meant that I had to devote myself to only experiencing sex as a 100% bottom sissy. That meant no more direct sissy clit attention. Sex had to mean that my satisfaction has to be from now on from being penetrated, and to develop the mental and emotional connection to a sissygasm via my p-spot. To do this, sissy chastity was now crucial.

Now we fast forward to approaching Day 3000, and finding myself light years beyond what I ever thought was possible, my sissy chastity is now evolved beyond a physical change and moreso a mental new normal. I know now that I wouldn't require being locked to prevent me from needing my sexual gratification through my asspussy. Reaching mental chastity has been something I never thought possible, and the gratification of my sissy leaks being fully limp and noticing my sissy clit has been slowly shrinking on it's own is a tremendous source of sissy pride that I share with Lady Diva.

Chastember is here. Time for your own sissy journey to begin. Locktober is next, with Nocumber and Denycember following. This is your chance to embark upon your own sissy journey, that might open new doors in your evolution. You too can suddenly find yourself locked in devotion and loving it! 

Devina 

Happy Birthday Lady Diva Cane - Sep 1 Domme of the Day!

 

A most Happy Birthday to the gracious Woman who made me the sissy I am today. Lady Diva Cane of Womania Empire, my Dominant big Sister, and the keeper of all my secrets and truth, words and deeds will never be able to repay Your life changing influence over me.

Love, Devina 

600 Days in Sissy Chastity & Other Random Thoughts

 Originally Posted Feb 16, 2019

 

Today marks my 600th day in sissy chastity. While normally I try and compose a singular thought and or message to my personal posts, today my mind is a swirl of a series of deep reflections and random thoughts about how I've arrived to this place right here and now.

The very first thing I did this morning was to send a text to Lady Diva Cane to thank her for this experience, and to thank Her for the warm cloak of Feminine power She has wrapped around me. Without Her guidance, nurturing and encouragement, nothing I have achieved as a chastity sissy sub would have been possible.

Which brings me to my next point: Gratitude

As sissies, subs, or subbies, we really ought to devote more time, being simply humble and grateful to the Women who have gifted us the truly life changing experiences that we are blessed to receive. If you truly want a more profound BDSM experience, express humility, and be grateful to those who bring the figments of your imagination to life.

Without Femdomination and the Women who live and breathe it, we are nothing.

Over the years I've often wondered about the series of events that combined in my life to have allowed me to view the world through sissy eyes. I've always been a bit of a chameleon, I was born out-of-time in a manner of speaking. Siblings, family & friends all around me were never in an age order like most people. I've spent much of my life with people either older or younger than me, and when I've spent time with those few that were near me in age and chronological proper order in their own families, I've often felt a bit uneasy. Maybe that's why the sissylife comes so naturally to me?

Thanks to Lady Diva's influence, and Her revealing to me that it was ok to be who I was, my sexual preposition has very much evolved in the past 5 years. My curiosity about Trans Women existed before I met Lady Diva and even Mistress Morganna, but now, its what my most natural desires are today. I haven't explored a male /Female relationship in many years, and in it's place a daily love and admiration for Trans Women has completely replaced those born biological feelings. I won't go deeper into that point but it has made me question the nature vs nurture debate within my own sexuality, and I'm not sure I have an answer

 

Never be ashamed of being a sissy. Embrace it gurls, you will be happier for it.

If you have learned to trust your gut in life, and it's telling you to explore your sissy side, do not suppress it. Be smart, be safe, and go for it. You will only regret not doing so sooner in life. For all the amazing things I've experienced, my only regrets are that I didn't start the moment after my first session with Mistress Morganna had concluded.

Somewhere in my head right now a bastardized version of Julio Iglacias' song To All The Girls I've Loved Before is going through my head. The lyrics are changed to All The Cocks I've Sucked Before... :)  I can be weird sometimes.

Being a sissy to me, means that I have a deeper love of Women than I ever could have as a male. It's not even close.

Being a sissy unfortunately often means you may never be able to express that love or live it in the manner you so badly want to.

To me the above pic is the absolute truth. I'm just thankful I can feel this way and be perfectly comfortable with myself about that. Being able to share this truth with more and more Women in my life has been a very rewarding thing.

The desire to suck Shecock in front of as many Women as possible just might be the strongest burning sissy desire in my life right now. The thought of it always makes my chastity device not fit very comfortably at all.

 

I don't know how long I will remain in chastity but the thought of a thousand days and thousand nights no longer terrifies me. Tomorrow means it would be only 399 days away.

Yesterday I had the biggest fully limp sissy leak in my life. It was as close to the volume of a normal cumshot that I could estimate. I smiled broadly to myself as it happened. This was one proud sissy to experience the sensation of knowing erections are meaningless.

We all can get to our happy place if we try. Starts by letting go..

 

In my pre sissy life before submitting to Femdomination, I never made love to a Woman with the intensity and single minded purpose of pleasing someone , like I do now when I suck Shecock. The ability to make a Shecock cum is a an emotional fulfillment like no other.

Either my coffee is wearing off or the swirl of thoughts in my brain has calmed down to something more orderly. Have a wonderful week everyone! 

Is a Sissy Born or Made, or Both?

 

Often on Sunday mornings, I find myself in a reflective mood over all of life's blessings. This morning almost as soon as I awoke, I began thinking back to the very moment the seed was planted within me, that one day many years later would germinate and grow into what Devina would become. For me, I remember it vividly, and in fact it may have been one of my earliest memories. When we would have company at our home I often would be crawling around the floor and occasionally would crawl under the table where the ladies were sitting and chatting after dinner and it was during one of these times I reached out and touched one of the ladies legs, encased in stockings or pantyhose, and I was immediately hooked on the sensation of how smooth they were.

What followed was a collective laughter of the Women as they thought how cute that was, and at that moment something in my tiny brain was wired to associate Women's lacy and smooth silky things with Women's laughter, and encouragement. It's those same feelings of Womanly reinforcement and encouragement that fills my sissy soul today with joy and affection. Was I born to be a sissy?

 

It further made me wonder over a nice warm cup of coffee, how other sissies come to the places they find themselves. Did they all experience similar early positive reinforcement over Women's clothing? Was it due to being picked on or some other traumatic experience in our early development? Are we pre dis positioned to evolve into panty bois and beyond, or do psychological responses to experiences early in life lead us to find safety and comfort in the Womanly things that create a special place in our lives? It truly makes one think.

In my journey, I've always known that my sissy life was different than most. Lady Diva even noticed this early on when I revealed my inner self to Her and Mistress Morganna. Looking back, I do think that it was that instant at the beginning that cemented my journey. My sissy path isn't one of shame or degradation. It's a lovely path that takes me to a place far away from the ugliness of the world. A world where Women know what is best, and nurture those lowly male creatures who discover that there is a desire within to evolve into something better, something Feminine.

 

The road to discovering your real inner sissy self can be a very scary place at first, especially if you don't understand why you have the feelings that you do. For me, I always went back to that initial moment, that spark and reward of touching stocking clad Women's legs and hearing laughter and amusement in return. Somehow at every nervous, anxious, and frightening step along the way, I always knew deep inside that my sissy journey was a road I needed to travel on and that it would eventually lead me to a place where things would all make sense. I am so grateful that my sissy journey began in such a positive place.

 

I see so many who associate their sissy life as one of shame, degradation, humiliation, and subservience to males, and that has never made sense to me. It simply does not compute or resonate with me in any way. To me a sissy is the enlightened evolution of the male creature. It takes bravery, courage, and many times blind faith to accept who you are and find ways to empower yourself as a sissy so you can grow and develop into something so much more. On this beautiful summer Sunday morning, I'm eternally grateful to Mistress Morganna & Lady Diva Cane who took a pretty useless lump of male clay, and began shaping it into something useful. It was with knocking knees and a heart pounding through my chest when I admitted to Them Both that my true desire was to explore the sissy person within me who was badly yearning for a way to break free. That admission changed my entire life. It truly did.

 

My life has been so enriched by Femdomination and my embrace of my sissy life, that I don't think I could find the ways to properly express myself. Every experience as Devina, has been a reward. I now find myself at a place where the vessel that contains Devina no longer obeys the physical urges of maleness. My emotional and physical satisfaction are fulfilled via Devina's desires and needs. Accepting and becoming a sissy was the best thing I have ever done in my life, and new boundaries are being broken all the time as 3000 days in sissy chastity looms over the horizon and being pussy free for over 10 years. I never could dream this was all possible, but it is...

I strongly encourage each sissy reading this to find yourselves within, embrace your sissy self and find your own path to follow.

 

Devina