Is a Sissy Born or Made, or Both?

 

Often on Sunday mornings, I find myself in a reflective mood over all of life's blessings. This morning almost as soon as I awoke, I began thinking back to the very moment the seed was planted within me, that one day many years later would germinate and grow into what Devina would become. For me, I remember it vividly, and in fact it may have been one of my earliest memories. When we would have company at our home I often would be crawling around the floor and occasionally would crawl under the table where the ladies were sitting and chatting after dinner and it was during one of these times I reached out and touched one of the ladies legs, encased in stockings or pantyhose, and I was immediately hooked on the sensation of how smooth they were.

What followed was a collective laughter of the Women as they thought how cute that was, and at that moment something in my tiny brain was wired to associate Women's lacy and smooth silky things with Women's laughter, and encouragement. It's those same feelings of Womanly reinforcement and encouragement that fills my sissy soul today with joy and affection. Was I born to be a sissy?

 

It further made me wonder over a nice warm cup of coffee, how other sissies come to the places they find themselves. Did they all experience similar early positive reinforcement over Women's clothing? Was it due to being picked on or some other traumatic experience in our early development? Are we pre dis positioned to evolve into panty bois and beyond, or do psychological responses to experiences early in life lead us to find safety and comfort in the Womanly things that create a special place in our lives? It truly makes one think.

In my journey, I've always known that my sissy life was different than most. Lady Diva even noticed this early on when I revealed my inner self to Her and Mistress Morganna. Looking back, I do think that it was that instant at the beginning that cemented my journey. My sissy path isn't one of shame or degradation. It's a lovely path that takes me to a place far away from the ugliness of the world. A world where Women know what is best, and nurture those lowly male creatures who discover that there is a desire within to evolve into something better, something Feminine.

 

The road to discovering your real inner sissy self can be a very scary place at first, especially if you don't understand why you have the feelings that you do. For me, I always went back to that initial moment, that spark and reward of touching stocking clad Women's legs and hearing laughter and amusement in return. Somehow at every nervous, anxious, and frightening step along the way, I always knew deep inside that my sissy journey was a road I needed to travel on and that it would eventually lead me to a place where things would all make sense. I am so grateful that my sissy journey began in such a positive place.

 

I see so many who associate their sissy life as one of shame, degradation, humiliation, and subservience to males, and that has never made sense to me. It simply does not compute or resonate with me in any way. To me a sissy is the enlightened evolution of the male creature. It takes bravery, courage, and many times blind faith to accept who you are and find ways to empower yourself as a sissy so you can grow and develop into something so much more. On this beautiful summer Sunday morning, I'm eternally grateful to Mistress Morganna & Lady Diva Cane who took a pretty useless lump of male clay, and began shaping it into something useful. It was with knocking knees and a heart pounding through my chest when I admitted to Them Both that my true desire was to explore the sissy person within me who was badly yearning for a way to break free. That admission changed my entire life. It truly did.

 

My life has been so enriched by Femdomination and my embrace of my sissy life, that I don't think I could find the ways to properly express myself. Every experience as Devina, has been a reward. I now find myself at a place where the vessel that contains Devina no longer obeys the physical urges of maleness. My emotional and physical satisfaction are fulfilled via Devina's desires and needs. Accepting and becoming a sissy was the best thing I have ever done in my life, and new boundaries are being broken all the time as 3000 days in sissy chastity looms over the horizon and being pussy free for over 10 years. I never could dream this was all possible, but it is...

I strongly encourage each sissy reading this to find yourselves within, embrace your sissy self and find your own path to follow.

 

Devina