Originally Posted March 2, 2019
I'm not sure when it happened exactly. I do know it's happened before my being locked in sissy chastity for 20 plus months and counting. So I'm not sure if it's 2 years now but it's likely somewhere around there, maybe even longer. What is it am I referring to?
Shecock
It's my sole source of sexual desire, fantasy, and gratification.
I'm proud to say as a sissy I've been pussy free for 4 years and days away from 4 months now. So I've stopped long ago about wasting mental energy on something that is no longer any part of my life. But Shecock? That is very real. Morning, noon and night real. I'm often thinking about Shecock before I even awake.
It's probably why I haven't raised a fuss to Lady Diva, not even once about my lengthy sissy chastity. Each day that passes the less consequence that my sissy clit has, other than being a leaking little plaything to cement my submission. But as a source of satisfaction? Ha! Hardly. Shecock is my only source of satisfaction. From the very first second a real cock touches your lips, your brain becomes short circuited, then begins to become rewired. I can still remember every minute detail of Diamond's cock as She lowered it towards my mouth so many years ago. The sensation of how silky soft it was remains with me to this day.
It's true.The more cock you suck, the more cock you want to suck. It never stops really, and why would it? When you are able to connect at such a primal level with one of nature's most unique and beautiful creatures, why would you ever not want to? and if you think that just sucking Shecock is addicting just wait until you experience the full meal deal!
When you cross that threshold to being a bottom for Shecock, you have no choice but to embrace your new life path, because there is no going back. Ever. From the first time I saw myself in a mirror with a Shecock in my mouth, I knew my old life would one day fully scatter behind me. When you FEEL that Shecock enter your asspussy, you truly KNOW it's gone. :)
Some try and hold on to both sides. I know I did for quite a while. Thanks to the help of Lady Diva and Her encouragement, I began to accept what my heart and soul were always telling me. It's a scary thing to embrace something while leaving all you thought you knew behind. But I was so lucky to have someone like Lady Diva who understood me, even when I didn't understand myself yet. She made it ok to walk my path, step by step, at my own comfort level.& I'm so very grateful.
So don't deny your own happiness. Find the things in life that inspire you, and surround yourself with people who embrace you and help you make it happen. Your only regret will be not having started sooner.
Devina