Originally Posted Feb 16, 2019
Today marks my 600th day in sissy chastity. While normally I try and compose a singular thought and or message to my personal posts, today my mind is a swirl of a series of deep reflections and random thoughts about how I've arrived to this place right here and now.
The very first thing I did this morning was to send a text to Lady Diva Cane to thank her for this experience, and to thank Her for the warm cloak of Feminine power She has wrapped around me. Without Her guidance, nurturing and encouragement, nothing I have achieved as a chastity sissy sub would have been possible.
Which brings me to my next point: Gratitude
As sissies, subs, or subbies, we really ought to devote more time, being simply humble and grateful to the Women who have gifted us the truly life changing experiences that we are blessed to receive. If you truly want a more profound BDSM experience, express humility, and be grateful to those who bring the figments of your imagination to life.
Without Femdomination and the Women who live and breathe it, we are nothing.
Over the years I've often wondered about the series of events that combined in my life to have allowed me to view the world through sissy eyes. I've always been a bit of a chameleon, I was born out-of-time in a manner of speaking. Siblings, family & friends all around me were never in an age order like most people. I've spent much of my life with people either older or younger than me, and when I've spent time with those few that were near me in age and chronological proper order in their own families, I've often felt a bit uneasy. Maybe that's why the sissylife comes so naturally to me?
Thanks to Lady Diva's influence, and Her revealing to me that it was ok to be who I was, my sexual preposition has very much evolved in the past 5 years. My curiosity about Trans Women existed before I met Lady Diva and even Mistress Morganna, but now, its what my most natural desires are today. I haven't explored a male /Female relationship in many years, and in it's place a daily love and admiration for Trans Women has completely replaced those born biological feelings. I won't go deeper into that point but it has made me question the nature vs nurture debate within my own sexuality, and I'm not sure I have an answer
Never be ashamed of being a sissy. Embrace it gurls, you will be happier for it.
If you have learned to trust your gut in life, and it's telling you to explore your sissy side, do not suppress it. Be smart, be safe, and go for it. You will only regret not doing so sooner in life. For all the amazing things I've experienced, my only regrets are that I didn't start the moment after my first session with Mistress Morganna had concluded.
Somewhere in my head right now a bastardized version of Julio Iglacias' song To All The Girls I've Loved Before is going through my head. The lyrics are changed to All The Cocks I've Sucked Before... :) I can be weird sometimes.
Being a sissy to me, means that I have a deeper love of Women than I ever could have as a male. It's not even close.
Being a sissy unfortunately often means you may never be able to express that love or live it in the manner you so badly want to.
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To me the above pic is the absolute truth. I'm just thankful I can feel this way and be perfectly comfortable with myself about that. Being able to share this truth with more and more Women in my life has been a very rewarding thing.
The desire to suck Shecock in front of as many Women as possible just might be the strongest burning sissy desire in my life right now. The thought of it always makes my chastity device not fit very comfortably at all.
I don't know how long I will remain in chastity but the thought of a thousand days and thousand nights no longer terrifies me. Tomorrow means it would be only 399 days away.
Yesterday I had the biggest fully limp sissy leak in my life. It was as close to the volume of a normal cumshot that I could estimate. I smiled broadly to myself as it happened. This was one proud sissy to experience the sensation of knowing erections are meaningless.
We all can get to our happy place if we try. Starts by letting go..
In my pre sissy life before submitting to Femdomination, I never made love to a Woman with the intensity and single minded purpose of pleasing someone , like I do now when I suck Shecock. The ability to make a Shecock cum is a an emotional fulfillment like no other.
Either my coffee is wearing off or the swirl of thoughts in my brain has calmed down to something more orderly. Have a wonderful week everyone!