The Chastity Chronicles: 1000 Days Locked & a Sissy's Open Letter to her Mistress

 Originally posted March 23, 2020

Dear Lady Diva Cane,

Once upon a time there was a rather pathetic male subbie who had given into the dark desires that consumed his young mind, and who had given into the fear of the complete unknown and placed himself into the hands of a true Breaker of men, in the form of Mistress Morganna. It was through Her systematic no-nonsense re-programming of a large number of disgusting male traits I had held since adolescence, that I began to see through a dimly lit haze, what might be the real me that spent a lifetime since early childhood hidden in shadows, and in the deepest recesses of my mind and my soul. Mistress Morganna began to rebuild my foundation as a lump of clay before Her, and began putting the building blocks together that would ultimately be the foundation I stand upon today.

 

Mistress Morganna's gracious act of introducing me to You might have been the single most life altering moment in terms of my life path and where it suddenly began to draw me towards. All the deep secrets I held, and any guilt or shame, and confusion that came with them, slowly began to feel less frightening as I felt a connection to You as a submissive. My desire to explore BDSM (and later the Feminine side of my personality) did not grow from a desire to be punished, or to be taken down a few pegs for a short period of time by a strict Woman. Nor was it to be ridiculed and humiliated from a sense of vulnerability. I think from the very first time I touched a Woman's pantyhose clad legs as a youth and heard laughter from all the Women in our house who thought it was cute, the reaction I had, was to find a place where I could connect with that initial moment and allow that seed to grow in a place that could nurture it and protect it until it was strong enough to grow on it's own.

That's what You gave me, even before I really knew it myself.

With each step I took under your wing, You became the Big Sister who always was in control, and who I began to trust would never lead me astray. You made a space within Your world, among all the various kinks, fetishes, sadisims, and perversions of the mind and flesh, for a very nervous closet sissy who yearned so badly to share her true self with someone who could understand me. Your chats over the years with me about many things, built a bond that was always built on Your Dominance, Your Guidance, and Your Wisdom, yet it allowed me the freedom to grow and to learn about who and what I was, and the ability to seek my truth where it led me.

 

In turn I took the lessons that Mistress Morganna and Yourself forged into me and always remembered that my relations with anyone in the kink/alt lifestyle world, would always be a reflection on You. Manners, politeness, patience, and a lack of ego, with the openness to always learn was what I carry with me always. With any compliments I have received along the way, I always made sure that You received the credit for shaping me who I was at any given time; then and now.

Domme / sub relationships come in all shapes, styles, sizes, and patterns. There is no one size fits all, and You know this as well as anyone. In the years where the male sub you began to re-shape needed the time and space to reconcile a growing and undeniable love of Transgendered Women, with the very real and emotional sissy that was breaking free from within, You not only allowed me the space to bring those worlds slowly together, You always encouraged me. You never shamed me, or ridiculed me, but instead You empowered me. You encouraged me, and congratulated me on my sense of taste and unyielding personal code of what I wished to be based on who I new I was.

So many times after one of our many Girl/gurl (sister chats as we called them) talks, I would beam with a sense of confidence and warmth in knowing that someone out there truly understood me, and cared about my well-being. You have always shared in my personal picky high standards in people, and as a result, I grew in confidence as the sissy I was slowly becoming for real. I began to feel at ease with sharing any twisted secret of desire I had with You because I always knew I would find acceptance and never face judgment for the things I truly loved. You were the first to completely understand me when I expressed that I was a sissy lesbian, and that my love for Women only deepened when expressed as Devina.

 

Thanks to You I began to make Your dominace the centrepiece of my sissylife, as I slowly branched out to have Devina's own circle of Female friends. In that time, Your graciousness has brought me the gifts of friendship from as many as 8 other Dominant Women along with several other Trans Women. What this has given me is a circle of Female influence on my life that touches me on a daily basis in some way shape or form, and You have never felt threatened by it, which deepens my bond to our relationship even more.

When I began my sissy chastity journey, it was not with any fanfare, or boasting of what I wished to do. It was instead a quiet devotion to You, and later Maitresse Cathie LaDivine (who became another beloved Dominant Sister who brought nothing but love and encouragement to my sissylife) as a form of sacrifice and a way to honour daily what You have made in me. As the days became weeks, and the weeks into months, I began to experience a metamorphosis, on a deeper physical and spiritual manner. With the physiological changes of extended chastity, a deeper emotional connection was made to my submission to You and to the Feminine circle around me. It was that connection and spiritual bond that changed the entire way I first saw chastity training. Chastity was not something to be endured, with a finish line, but a method of discovery, and a path forward to personal growth.

 

Your empowerment has now allowed me to create a world where the very fabric of who I am and what I need for personal fulfillment has morphed into something I could have once never, ever thought possible. You have allowed me a way forward where what is physical satisfaction, emotional satisfaction, and spiritual satisfaction now center around the needs of Devina the sissy, not the carrying case she came into this world with. You have made it possible to express my love of Trans Women and Shecock in all it's forms without prejudice or shame. You make it possible for me to feel the warmth and love that a Dominant Woman can express in Their own unique ways, even in times when I don't always love myself. For that alone, I cannot express how much that means to me.

Day 1000 is not a destination, it is merely a sign post on route to somewhere beyond. As I always try and seek balance with the needs of Devina with the world around us (which has seemingly gone mad; more than normal), I always know that You are a constant. You are one of the rare few that know me in ways that less than a handful on this earth do, and that makes You a rare gem to me

Thank You, Lady Diva for allowing me the opportunity to give my Chastenial gift to You. I'm more proud of You having my gift, than in anything I sacrificed to earn it for You.

Your Sissy Always

Miss Devina Cox

The Re-Wiring of the Sissy Brain

 

A large part of my continuing sissy journey involves introspection alongside lived experiences. Why have certain things, events, and occurrences brought me to this place?  In order to learn about oneself, one should not be afraid to ask questions of oneself. 

I've now lived as a pussy free chastised sissy for many years. Pussy free for over 11 years and in sissy chastity for almost 3200 days. It's fair to say the changes in my life from where I started as a useless male lump of clay, have been completely life changing.  But as time has gone on, I can't help but notice a complete re-reining of my sissy brain in respect to basic instincts and urges.  A lot of sissies would like to believe that a few weeks of denial can change them forever, when in fact it does take years and years to see the results.

And now within myself I am seeing the results

 I don't know when it came to be but it's something I accept without reservation now. When I see a Woman's nude body, especially Her genitalia, I no longer harbour any urges, feelings of want, desire, or need.  While I admore Women's beauty, power, superiority, and can most certainly adore the Female Form in all it's magnificence, there is zero remaining feelings of pursuit and or conquest.

It's simply gone completely.

But before anyone sheds a tear, it fills me with joy to know, the empty space once possessed by my discarded and destroyed male ego, now finds a whole new avenue for desire, lust, and all those naughty feelings that submissive creatures all have.

But it's no longer over what I can never attain in Women...

 

 They now are fully, completely focused towards TGirls. Body, Mind, and Spirit, all manners of physical, emotional, relationship, and all other needs are rooted in my love of Trans Women. I can feel it happen daily. After all this time, under the Femdomination of Lady Diva Cane, Maitresse Cathie La Divine, Lady Morganna, and every other Domme that has influenced my life, has my reprogramming reached a point where I am forever changed?

It sure feels like it.

Because it now feels 100% natural.

And that's the difference. There is no longer any internal conflict. It just IS.

 It quite frankly feels like a weight off my shoulders to know that I can never again pose any sort of sexual threat of any kind to any Woman. I can love Them, respect Them, cherish Them, honour Them, serve Them, obey Them, and submit to Their power.... but I can never desire their magic.

And that comes with an inner peace that I would wish on all sissies. Leaving everything behind to be able to walk through that door has been a blessing.

I wish every sissy can find that place in their own journey...

 

Sincerely Sissy

Devina 

Who Thinks About it More?

 

If you're a sissy, have you ever wondered how much you think of cock compared to every day Women? Do you think it's even a close ratio? Based on my own daily thoughts it's probably not even remotely close!

There are a few accepted non-negotiables in today's world for all sissies. The main two pillars of sissy life are sissy chastity and that ALL sissies at some point, preferably early, in their journey MUST know what cock tastes like.

  If cock has not touched your lips, you simply are that the point in your journey where you are a crossdresser. There is nothing wrong with that, but the mantle of "sissy" means something more. Something deeper in your journey that you cannot return from. 

I won't get into why some sissies prefer different types of cock, for that is a far deeper dive into the psyche of sissies, but as most who follow my blog know, Shecock is my default and only setting, so I will approach this from the only POV I know.

 I purposely update my blog in the mornings. One of the main reasons is it gives me the opportunity to start thinking of Shecock at the start of my day. There have been many times (and it's an ongoing thing) where I'm dreaming of Shecock even before I wake. This has been a key pillar of my long term sexual rewiring of my sissy brain to bring me to the point where my sexual desires are fully and completely focused on Shecock. Beginning the day is the first step to thinking about Shecock numerous times throughout my day, 24/7/365.

 

Thinking of Shecock throughout my day is like having your secret best friend always by your side. It's a constant reminder of who and what you really are. It conditions your thoughts and actions in your daily life to avoid old disgusting habits once caused by your emasculated male ego. You can quickly and effectively center your sissy brain by reminding yourself at various times in your day that you are a sissy cocksucker. It's a powerful self motivational tool to keep yourself in line as per your Domme's training and wishes!

 I don't know to what degree Women think of sucking cock, but based on discussions with Lady Diva, the ratio might be 100-1000:1 between sissies and Women.  Thats something to be proud of as a sissy. It's something that sets us apart in the Female/TGirl/sissy hierarchy. 

Embrace your cock loving thoughts. It's what makes you special!

 

Devina 

 

The Chastity Chronicles - Day 975

 Originally Posted Feb 27, 2020

 

 I'm smiling at the moment as I type this. Not because it's Day 975 in sissy chastity, but rather what lies ahead. When a sissy gives up their manhood completely to Femdomination, and the toxic male ago is systematically stripped away and discarded, you find yourself left with the essence of who and what you really are. You also discover what your worth is to all Women in this world.

For those who haven't yet been down this road, you might be wondering what I mean by that last sentence, and once I would have been right there with you. How can a sissy locked in chastity for such a long time have any worth? How can someone unable to use that shrinking sissy-clit possibly have any worth to a Woman? The first step to understanding your worth as a sissy is to remove any male perspective from your thinking. Then you will start to understand

Take in point yesterday. Domina Ira Von Mesmer graced me with Her presence by following my Twitter account. I had no real way to offer my gratitude to Her other than to dedicate my 974th day of sissy chastity to Her, and this pleased Her. In that moment, I once again realized that as a sissy with all my former arrogance, and male ego stripped away, I could bring a genuine warm energy to a Dominant Woman by offering up all I had to give in that instant.

Some might say what a minuscule offering, and they would be missing the point of submission to Femdomination. Submission is not something that you do once in a while, (although many define it as such when it pleases them and their arrogant male ego), but submission is something that you are at your core of a human. I was a submissive long before I fully embraced my inner sissy psyche, and in discovering who Devina was and is, that submission has only deepened and become more defined and substantive. If you place yourself before a Dominant Woman and then go back to being the same person you always are, then you have not the first clue of what submission means and how it can change your whole life. In some ways that is a very sad thing, for you have missed the most amazing gift that Femdomination can bring to your life.

 

If your submission and your training at the hands of a strong Woman leads to post session guilt or shame, then you really need to have a deep conversation with yourself, and begin to take steps to keep the illusion of what your ego thinks your life is, in check.

Submission at it's core is a beautiful surrender, and will shape and influence all aspects of your life. It is a spiritual journey far more than a physical one. 975 days in sissy chastity has been more than proof of this, as I find myself more patient, calmer, and more at peace with my place in this world and how I choose to share my energy with others, especially with Women.

So as the day approaches where I can offer the gift of millennial chastity to Lady Diva Cane, Maitresse Cathie La Divine, Lady Morganna,  all the Women of Womania Empire and to Women everywhere, I beam with an inner sense of warmth that in my sissy life journey, I've been able to discover truths about myself I never knew existed.

Day 1000 is coming but I already know that I won't be, because the reason for this chastity journey was not about me... 

Sincerely Sissy

Devina Cox 

 

Author's note: Today is my 3165th day of Sissy Chastity :) 

Devina's Valentines Domme of the Day - Lady Diva Cane

 

No Resolutions

 

New Years brings a litany of people expressing resolve and desire to change, to revitalize and to grasp some sort of brass ring. We've all seen it, we've all done it, and we've all inevitably failed miserably simply due to the root of our fabricated motivation being a date on a calendar.

I'm making no such resolutions this year. I'm simply going to try and keep focused on my sissy journey.  So my resolve in a sense is easy: Stay The Course. I simply wish to keep filling Lady Diva, Lady Morganna, and Maitresse Cathie with pride in Their ownership of what remains of my emasculated male ego (EME) in my locked sissy-clit. I pledge to earn whatever reward They deem fitting, at the time of Their choosing.

 

I also will continue in being a Shecock loving sissy cocksucker. Worshipping Shecock is my only outlet for sexual gratification, and my source of pride and identity as a bottom to Women and Trans Women. It's amazing how the transformation within me has taken place to no longer have the lustful urges as I once did towards Women and now have a deeper sense of devotion to Them instead. 

 I will also continue to enjoy seeing my sissyclit shrink with each passing month in sissy chastity. I can't wait for the day when Lady Diva gets to show Her Female friends how She mastered a symbol of maleness and transformed it into something to be celebrated as a feminized sissyclit, unable to ever please any Woman except for Their amusement and ridicule. I feel no shame in this, only new found pride as my sissy life continues to push it's way into my daily life more and more.

 

I also plan on continuing to transform my sexuality and sexual gratification to leak and orgasm from penetration of my asspussy. This has been one of the most challenging things I've attempted as many times I've been close but haven't mastered it yet. At the same time I can leak fully limp via simply mental imaging at times, so I know I'm getting close. I just need to find the key that brings it all together.

Being a sissy means your journey is never complete, and as soon as you reach what once was thought impossible, the next adventure awaits. I just wish to keep on taking more steps along my sissy path in 2026.

Devina 

Re-Sharing My Best Sissy XXXmas Gift Ever!

Originally Shared Dec 2016

 

 The day I made the decision to truly begin embracing the inner gurl within, was a life changing moment. Since accepting and embracing "Devina" as a true part of who I am as a spiritual being, I have felt so many blessings of the Universe. Many in ways I never could have imagined, and far beyond my wildest dreams. Just over a week ago, I received such a blessing, that has made me take several days to truly comprehend, to be able to put into words to share with you all.

All my achievements as a sissy are due to the training and shaping of what was once an immature and unaware male underling. I've been proud to have kept all the valuable lessons Mistress Morganna instilled in me when I began my first steps as a submissive. As Lady Diva then began to shape and refine the inner sissy lesbian within, all of Her teachings, and generosity stayed with me every step along the way. I have been truly blessed to have made friendships and relationships with some amazing and iconic Dominant Women, and with some of the most beautiful Trans Women in the world. My experiences with them all, be it in person or not, have further shaped and defined who Devina really is. For all of that I am truly humbled and grateful.

Just a couple weeks ago, my vanilla life took me across the continent to the sunny beaches of Florida, for a bit of a working holiday. Most of my week was already pre planned with seminars and events but I knew that I would have some time to relax later in the week. Since I would be sharing a room with a colleague, it forced me to leave all my favourite sleepwear and panties at home. However upon getting a feel for where we would be staying in relation to south Florida, I realized that I might have a once in a lifetime opportunity to reach out to a Domme who I have long admired... Goddess Brianna

 

There are thousands of truly amazing Dominant Women all across the globe, but in my humble view, there are those who are simply a cut above. One can simply feel their radiant Womanly power exude from within. For these Women, being a Domme is not something they "do", for it is something they were truly born to be. Goddess Brianna has always struck me as always being a part of that elite collection of Dommes. She is an iconic foot Goddess, alongside being one of the most intense and masterful strapon wielding Goddesses on earth.

It was on the day that I was travelling to Florida when I decided to respectfully reach out to Her via twitter, where She graciously followed my twitter account. My attempt to reach out was a complete shot in the dark, with such short notice, and not being in a position whatsoever to serve Her as Devina, even if I was lucky enough to be allowed to visit and worship Her at all. 

 

Goddess Brianna graciously replied to my twitter DM with instructions to send Her a list of my experiences, interests and essentially as much relevant information as I could. I was somewhat stunned that what was a shot in the dark, just might be able to occur as reality! It was then that my years of servitude and submissive training kicked in and I realized I needed to write a concise and respectful letter to Her in order to be allowed in Her presence:

Good morning Goddess Brianna

My name is Devina Cox, although for purposes of my visit to South Florida, ********* will have to do, as sadly I'm unable to travel and present myself in a proper sissy manner in which I'm accustomed to in my alt lifestyle activities.

I've been involved in the bdsm lifestyle for the better part of 20 years first serving as a regular male sub to Mistress Morganna for approx 6 years, and the last decade plus to Lady Diva Cane, who is responsible for bringing out my alter ego of Devina Cox and allowing her to blossom. In that time I have been exposed to a variety of session activities and have developed a solid sense of the type of sub I am when serving as Devina, or as my inferior born gender male self ( they do differ somewhat on their styles)

For purposes of my trip to Florida and of a potential session with Yourself, I will try and be brief as to what my interests are and are not in hopes O/ours may align to have a mutually enjoyable experience. 

Likes:

Foot worship and massage

Body worship and massage

Light / moderate CBT

Strapons

Queening 

Barefoot trampling

Plastic wrap/ mummification

Facesitting

Humiliation

Heels

Fetish wear

 

Limits/ dislikes: 

Golden/Brown

Nipple play

Marks (only for the purposes of this trip)

Needle play or branding

Adult diaper / infantism

I believe in approaching Dommes in an open honest manner and rather than trying to fabricate some elaborate theme or role play that feels forced or unnatural, I like to find connections in personality and fun as two strangers playing together for the first time are bound to have awkward moments. I am definitely a sub who strives to please a Domme and to try as best I can to ensure She would always welcome repeat sessions. I have been fortunate to have made connections / sessioned/ made friendships with with other well known Dommes and I hold those friendships as dear as any as they share in some of my deepest secrets of my inner true sissy personality. It would be my hope that after our time together that W/we could foster a similar friendship. My underlying motivation as a long time sub is to enrich my life with as many genuine relationships with special dominant Women such as yourself, who I have always admired.

My availability is Thurs or Friday afternoon. I would be interested in a 2 hr session in order to have a better chance to enjoy our time. I would also be interested in learning the details of a session with You and Miss Kendra James as this might be a once in a lifetime opportunity for me.

Thank You so much for the opportunity to converse and am looking forward to experiencing Your natural radiance.

Sincerely Sissy

Miss Devina Cox

 

Public Service Announcement: It has been my experience that when conversing with Dommes who have extended Their friendship to me, at the very top of a list of unpleasant, annoying, aggrivating, time wasting activities is for Dommes to deal with poorly written, poorly communicated, and plain rude and disrespectful emails. Trust me, Dommes almost universally despise reading emails by people who have no clue as to how to properly and respectfully communicate with them. As you will learn later in this post, my email was identified as an example of exactly how a Domme WANTS to be communicated with. Please feel free to use my example in order to better learn how communicate with a Dominant Woman in your future, and not to be seen as a useless time waster.

Now, back to our regularly scheduled blog post...

So after arriving to Florida and checking into my hotel to begin my conference activities, I still had no idea if I would be able to serve Goddess Brianna, and if you carefully noticed, I swung for the fences and asked if it was possible to serve Mistress Kendra James as well. If this could happen, it was going to be a once in a lifetime opportunity, and being the Shecock loving buttslut sissy that I was trained to be, I learned that Devina has always been rewarded most when she goes all out!

The universe rewarded me via a text message in the middle of a meeting...

Hello Devina it's Goddess Brianna. I'd like to be able to speak to you today. I'll be free in the evening between 7-8pm.

Good Lord, talk about being distracted for the remainder of my meetings! I was given further instructions on how to arrange a deposit on my session. All that awaited was for the time to call Goddess Brianna and to make sure my nerves were as calm as could be. What made this difficult was that around the time of our arranged conversation, I was supposed to be headed into a dinner event with dozens of colleagues. I needed to quickly find a place to have a very discrete conversation in a very public place with a very captivating Dominant Woman...

 

I'm not sure how nervous I may have sounded when Goddess Brianna picked up my call, but W/we managed to have a very pleasant conversation in more detail about my experiences and about my lifestyle. Then Goddess dropped the ultimate news upon me....Mistress Kendra would be joining Her and I was being granted the opportunity to worship them both!

 

My heart skipped a beat, as I tried to make sense of the monumental opportunity that was before me in mere days. This was a dream of a lifetime suddenly being made real, and I could even begin to comprehend the magnitude before me as I concluded the call and rejoined my dinner mates. I wonder if they sensed my complete distraction as I was torn between two completely different worlds, and would be for the next 3 days until my session with two of the most amazing Goddesses I have admired for so long..

As the days went by and one by one my commitments wrapped up, it felt a bit weird knowing I would be submitting and would so without really being "Devina". It had been years since I wasn't transformed and submissive, although I assumed Goddess Brianna and Mistress Kendra would have something planned. Still to not present fully shaven and in my own gurly clothes, wig and makeup, was the only slight tinge of sadness about an upcoming mega event in Devina's life. While she couldn't be there in full regalia, she would certainly be there as a well behaved, fully engaged, obedient sissy, even in spirit. Yet the magnitude of what was to come still hadn't set hold. Then the second email came:

We are confirmed for this coming Thursday the 15th from 3 to 5 pm. I would like for you to come neatly trimmed and or shaven, particularly around the torso and groin areas. Once you have kissed our feet to gain entry we will have a few moments to chat. From there you will be asked to disrobe and present yourself for inspection. It would please me for you to abstain from any kind of release from now until we meet. If you wish to further please me you may bring with you a bottle of dry red wine for myself and a bottle of white wine for Mistress Kendra. 

The  dungeon we will be playing at is located at  ********************************. Please park in the back of the  building and call me 2 minutes prior to our session. I will give you further instruction from there. While I realize you will not be doing a full transformation I still wish for you to be somewhat feminine. Some grooming is important and we will probably be bringing along some lingerie for you to wear.

I am very much looking forward to having you serve the two of us!

Goddess Brianna

 

Now I was faced with a bit of a dilemma. I had not packed any sort of electric trimmer to adhere to Goddesses instructions. And I couldn't just start shaving my torso without arousing suspicion from my conference room mate. Now the thrill of trying to juggle two completely different parts of my life began to get the adrenaline pumping. A quick trip to a local supermarket allowed me to buy an electric adjustable trimmer. Ok, I could make this happen! Shaving the proper areas for play was easy enough, and now I could be trim without being outed. The session was mere hours away...

Arriving at Goddess Brianna's dungeon, I followed instructions and was given orders as to where to enter and wait. It was at that point the nerves kicked in and Devina began screaming in my head,

 "OMG this is really happening!!" 

Then suddenly I was welcomed in by Goddess Brianna and I found myself before two of the most stunning Women of my gurly dreams. "If I'm dreaming, please don't wake me up" , I stammered, and on cue followed instructions and kissed both of their shoes, thanking Them Both.

 

As foretold, once I kiss both of Their feet, we had a few moments to introduce each other and to chat for a few minutes. Both Goddesses were decked out in latex leggings and corsets, and both were absolutely stunning visually in person. When you see well known Dommes either in photos or video, with professional makeup and done proper for the camera, you always know that that is not an everyday look. But both Goddess Brianna and Mistress Kendra were absolute visions of beauty; simply stunning.

I was asked to reveal more of myself for the benefit of Mistress Kendra, as to my experiences, my life as Devina, and so forth. It was then I was asked to go to the far end of the dungeon to disrobe and to return before them both for inspection. I quickly did this and assumed the inspection position before them both, remembering how to properly perform this from Mistress Morganna's lessons long ago. This immediately brought words of praise from both Goddesses as they were pleased to see a new slave before them with proper mannerisms. Goddess Brianna was particularly interested as to how I managed to trim properly before them both and was pleased to see the results, and the clean shaven naughty bits that they were about to own soon enough.

 

What proceeded over the next 2 hours was nirvana for this sissy. I was put in pantyhose (impressing them with my proper technique) ruffled pink booty panties, lipstick and then told to worship both Goddesses feet which I gladly did in earnest. Knowing I was kissing the feet, toes and soles of such iconic Women was mind blowing, and it almost didn't feel real. Both Goddesses being friends, know each other well and are very experienced in knowing how to thrash a sissy like me. After worshiping and massaging their feet to satisfaction, I was mummified in saran and placed on a table where I was very prone to their twisted desires. A hole was ripped in my panties and pantyhose exposing my sissyclit to a spirited CBT session. It had been quite a long time since I was subject to that type of punishment and needless to say after being cropped, slapped and finger flicked on my sissy ballettes, my adrenaline was peaking as I anticipated the next sadistic blow. Hearing Goddess Brianna and Mistress Kendra laugh at my misery told me that my suffering was for their benefit and was worth it. I would not disappoint them, and in turn I would not dishonor Lady Diva's work of shaping me into a properly behaved obedient sissy. My suffering was a small price to pay to maintain Her standards.

 

 

While helpless and fully prone, Mistress Kendra and Goddess Brianna took turns rewarding me by smothering me under their latex clad derrieres. What an honor to be allowed to struggle for breath under such glorious bottoms. I prepared myself to go as long as I could without breathing, and to take in and enjoy every second of their queening. Pure bliss that I wished would never end!

Mistress Kendra then asked me how big of cock I have sucked and taken, and without hesitation and with Lola's fucking of my asspussy still fresh in my mind, I proudly replied, "9 inches Mistress". Then I realized the gravity of my reply as I realized that a 9" Shecock (or even Gigi's huge girth 8" Shecock) can be a bit more forgiving than a 9" strapon dong. This further was reinforced by both Mistresses' evil laughs about which ones they would use on me. This is where I dreaded not having the proper time and or methods to prepare myself as I normally would by warming up my asspussy with a plug and being fully clean (although I kept my meals that day to very light ) I knew that both Goddesses were very adept at stretching out asspussies and I had better employ all the mental relaxation tricks I could and fast.

 

Mistress Kendra first wanted to gauge my oral skills with her cock presented to my lips, without hesitation I accepted the challenge. Mistress Kendra's cock seemed to be the warm up act to what undoubtedly was Goddess Brianna's main event. Still, Mistress Kendra's cock was a good 7-8 inches and I eagerly wanted to show Her my skills so I went at it like I would a real Shecock and even began deepthroating it to Her delight. I kept hearing Her voice tell me, yes ME, what a great cocksucker I was! I was so proud of myself and proud of how I embraced being a Shecock lover to be able to impress Mistress Kendra. My heart was singing inside. Then it sank a little...

Goddess Brianna's cock was offered to my lips and while I knew I could likely handle the length, the head of Her cock was going to stretch my asspussy wide. My thoughts went to how Gigi's Shecock would gag me to tears and there was no deepthroating of Goddess Brianna's black monster. But in that moment, there was no place I would rather be. I was a complete whore for both of these amazing Women and I was loving every minute of it, even knowing what was to come. (and not knowing what was to come)

Mistress Kendra entered me from behind as I was put over a fucking bench. Devina ever present in my thoughts began to scream inside my head, "YOU ARE BEING FUCKED BY KENDRA JAMES RIGHT NOW!!" and my body knew what it must do. I pushed back on Her cock rocking both hips as hard and often as I could. there was no way this sissy was going to be a dead fish lay for Mistress Kendra, and the harder I pushed back that happier She became.

 

 "Look at this slut push back on my cock!" , 

She gleefully proclaimed, as Goddess Brianna watched me fuck myself silly on Mistress Kendra's cock. I'm sure in that moment, both Dommes knew that my talk of being with Trans Women regularly was no fabricated boast, as I was working that strapon dick as best I could!

 

How I wished I was fully before them as Devina. How I wish I could be filmed being drilled by Mistress Kendra while ruining my lipstick on Goddesses' cock. So often I envied seeing others being torn apart by these two, and now that it was truly me, all I wanted , as a greedy slut would, was to want more. Gawd it felt so good to be grabbed by the hips, feeling Mistress kendra's latex warmth slam into me and hearing the sultry softness of Her voice marvel at how greedy of a slut I was. I smiled broadly in that moment as time and space disappeared.

 

Then as Mistress Kendra pulled Her cock out of my now well worked in asspussy, I heard Goddess Brianna's all too familiar devilish chuckle as She prepared to make me Her sissy bitch. Her entering me was less of a fucking and more of an impaling. As I struggled to accommodate the huge head of Her cock, She had me moaning and whimpering with each slow invasive thrust, until She opened my asspussy wide and fully entered me. She giggled with delight as I struggled with accepting Her fully inside me, but even as my body struggled, my mind was a cacophony of fireworks exploding as She began thrusting deep into me again and again. I didn't want to let Her down and I did my best to push back on her big cock like I did with Mistress Kendra, but this was an unforgiving, unyielding beast. All I could relate to was Gigi's enormous Shecock girth stretching me wide open in comparison. I survived that and I was determined to please Goddess Brianna. She had rewarded me so much as an almost total stranger and I wanted to prove I was the type of slut I believed Lady Diva had turned me into.

 

Goddess Brianna had me a lathered whimpering mess as She gave me exactly what I needed, what I craved, and what defined me. As a sissy, I had strived to be a well behaved, well mannered respectful gurl to all the Dominant Women in my life. But at the end of the day, I was still a sissy, I was still fuckmeat to Supreme Goddesses such as Briana and Kendra, and I needed to be fully aware of my place before them. I had earned no favor with them. Every gift they bestowed upon me was purely of their own grace.

 

When Goddess pulled Her cock out of me, I almost went fully limp on their strapon bench. My asspussy was used and a bit raw, although I was not complaining. I was ordered to return to the floor where I was honoured to once again worship the feet of both Goddesses as they took turns trampling me. They were going to make sure they were ingrained upon all parts of me, both inside and out. As I kissed and worshipped Mistress Kendra's delectable toes, I could feel Goddess rubbing my sissy clit in between Her toes. I had been ordered not to have any release before my visit and combined with the travel, it was a week with no release and Goddesses' feet were extremely skilled at bringing my sissyclit to life.

I was asked if I could cum on demand and to my knowledge, it had been years and years since Mistress Morganna had attempted to train me to obey such commands. As both Goddesses put their toes in my mouth I was ordered to slowly rub my sissyclit from a 10 count. It was the slowest 10 count likely ever encountered and as Goddess counted to six, my body began to spam into an intense release that unloaded an enormous about of sissy juice that definitely surprised both Goddess Brianna and Mistress Kendra, as they were not expecting such a release! But my servitude to them was not over.

 

As a final act of submissiveness and humiliation, they instructed for me to lick my sissy juice off my hands and off my chest, which was a first for me. I've always enjoyed Shecock facials immensely but this for me was a first, but I obeyed, albeit slowly at first. Left a spent sissy mess on the floor before them, I took a few moments to catch my breath and was then instructed to clean the feet of both Goddesses with sani wipes, then I was allowed to clean myself up. If this was my first and only experience serving these two Supreme Women, then I was in a state of bliss. I couldn't fathom at that point what possibly could be if one was so lucky to be in their presence regularly. Those two could corrupt someone completely, and they would love every minute of it!

After re-dressing, allowing for my sissy head to stop spinning, W/we had a few moments to chat and say our goodbyes. It took 10 days for me to grasp the magnitude of my experience to put into words, and I'm sure I missed so many details that will be with me for as long as my mind can function.

When I returned home, my encounter was not finished as Goddess Brianna ask me to call Her the other eve. We had a wonderful chat about our shared experience and how all the stars seemed to align in how I was able to manage a session with the both of them. Goddess Brianna indicated that what I was allowed to experience was a definite rarity as normally She would see a new slave by Herself first and only then would She entertain the notion of a duo Goddess session.

Pay attention fellow submissives because this part is important:

The reason why She allowed me the incredible opportunity She did, was in large part in how I approached Her respectfully and how well I communicated to Her via email, text and by phone. I did my best to be polite, concise, unassuming, and humble. If not for my early training as a submissive, combined with my inner feminine spirit, I likely may not have gotten to enjoy such a mindblowing experience. Even more, Goddess Brianna extended an invitation to serve before Her again, should I ever be in south Florida again.

We had a lovely chat and I expressed to Her how grateful I was in not only serving, but in Her extending a hand of friendship to me. It was unlike anything I experienced simply due to how personal it was to Her that I enjoyed my time. I was taken aback , by this but pleasantly so. I hope is both She and Mistress Kendra read this, they both will smile as I am right now. It was the best xxxmas gift this gurl has ever received! 

(It remains as one of the best life experiences I have ever had to this very day!) 

Sincerely Sissy,

Devina