Are You Ready for Locktober?

For many sissies the topic of chastity is incredibly daunting. I was no different. I had a difficult time even understanding why it was something anyone enjoyed?

Today is Locktober 2287th for me and now I look back and see that those doubts were from my male ego who was desperately trying to retain control of my "sissy situation". I hadn't yet begun the process to eradicate that destructive part of my psyche from my self being. 

Take it from me, chastity is a journey of self discovery and will bring you to places you don't even understand yet. It is a deeply profound way to connect to your Mistress, and you will learn so much about yourself than you ever thought possible. 

Don't be afraid.

 

Learning to Shop

 

 One of the most fundamental womanly traits is the art of shopping, and for sissy gurls who finally take the evolutionary step to begin amassing their own proper wardrobe, this is a mysterious art, full of trial and error. For me this was no different as I had already a small collection of feminine things I treasured dearly, but I realized with each visit to Lady Diva, that what I had was simply inadequate to be a real gurl.

Most gurls quickly gravitate to the basics by various methods. Panties, stockings, hosiery, maybe a bra if their lucky. These things are easy to stash and quickly fulfill erotic fantasies and provide immediate gratification. Emerging gurls soon realize there is so much more that they need to evolve into the true sissy they were meant to be. Garters, bras, teddy's, negligees, sleeping gowns, slips, skirts, dresses, tops, evening wear, and so on and so on, it's really endless. It's also extremely daunting to even know where to begin, so as most do, us gurls usually start acquiring all sorts of things and learning either on their own, or with the divine assistance of a Dominant Woman, how to properly select, and use their clothing for maximum effect.

 

 

With the aid of strong desire and some online searching, I began my quest for Devina to begin building her own wardrobe. My initial criteria was that whatever I acquired, it must come from a Woman, no band new never worn off the rack stuff. I knew I needed to feel the Feminine energy of each item of clothing so that it would permeate my inner gurly spirit in order to blossom even more. <

Panties were always plentiful to find, along with stockings and such. What became a task was to find access to regular Women's clothing and not just underwear. Mistress Moon provided a short term solution via booty shorts and night shirts, and with ebay no longer listing pre worn items, I discovered another online auction site which would become eventually a major part of my wardrobe shopping. 

 

As most genetic Women learn at a young age, I quickly realized the addictive nature of shopping for women's things, and what made the impulse even stronger was suddenly I had access to all sorts of things being sold directly by the Women who owned and wore the items. Receiving these gifts in the mail, opening them and deeply inhaling the Feminine scent, further ingrained my sissy DNA to Feminization. No drug could ever be as powerful, and I was just getting started....

 

 

 

 

Devina's Domme of the Day Sep 30

 

Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 30

 

Devina's Domme of the Day Sep 29

 

Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 29

 

The Silk Trap Prevails

 

 With my status re-confirmed as a shemale cock lover, yet sadly few opportunities to indulge in my hometown, I had a wonderful fall back position as an emerging sissy slave. I'm certain at this current point in my life that those who discover and surrender to the Silk Trap, never leave, and the bonds of Femininity grabs hold for a lifetime. It had become perfectly natural to re assume my persona as a submissive who loved diving into the world of Feminization and Femdom worship.

 My training under both mistress Morganna and Lady Diva Cane were proving to have a lasting effect as I began to place higher expectations upon myself to devote to presenting myself to them in such a manner that it was easier for them to Feminize me. Taking steps such as thinning eyebrows and body shaving became more ritualistic, and I knew that from now on the only way to present myself as Lady Diva's canvass was to be shaven and ready, both inside and out. Shaving became a physical and mental ritual, reaffirming my devotion to Femdom submission, even when not in the presence of my Mistress. It became another step in my evolution as a sissy slave.

 

With each visit to the dungeon, my Femme alter ego would be revealed, and I relished each moment, encased in the Silk Trap while worshipping my Mistress. Each visit made me connect to my inner Female spirit that much more. Lady Diva's demeanour evolved as She recognized my growing evolution. She graciously welcomed me into Her Sisterhood and in many ways it felt like playing dress up, with delicious kinky fun mixed in. It became easier and easier to let myself surrender completely to Her and the Divine Female energy that surrounded me, and I loved it all

 

I recognized what a gift was being bestowed upon me, as I felt that sense of Female connection. Catching glimpses in the mirror, I didn't see a genetic male transformed, I saw my inner self revealed, and with each glimpse of what Lady Diva would chisel away, my resolve to make it easier and easier to reach that place was steadied.

My sissy clothing collection needed to grow, and grow far beyond the panties and stockings I had treasured away since as a panicked teen I swiped my sister-in-law, Anna's panties. I had come so far from those early shaky steps, but now it was time for this sissy to start earning her stripes.  And while Lady Diva trained my asspussy with Her enormous strapon, I knew that I had better get on it. It was time for Devina to have more of her own life and not just when I submitted

 

Devina's Domme of the Day Sep 28

 

Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 28

 

Happy Sissy Birthday to Me!

 

20 years ago today I left behind ever wanting to worship Women as a lowly male subbie and dedicated myself to discovering the real sissy that yearned to break free for good. Happy Birthday to me!

Devina's Domme of the Day Sep 27

 

Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 27

 

A Warm Blanket & Some Nice Reading

 

Devina's Domme of the Day Sep 26

 

Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 26

 

Bois Will Be Gurls Vol 26

 

Devina's Domme of the Day Sep 25

 

Devina's TGirl of the Day Sep 25

 

For Those Just Tuning In

 For those new to this blog, my old blog which I had invested 11 years into was suddenly deleted by the gewgel gestappo soi've been focused on reposting my early history of how I became the sissy I am today.  To have a lasting record of my sissy journey is hugely important to me and I hope you may find inspiration in your own sissy journeys based on my experiences. 

I know I have missed some current events such as the current month of Chastember, but I just want to keep at bringing back my sissy life as we go. Locktober is just days away and since I'm already in Locktober 2281st as of today, I will be properly celebrating the chastity month, but as those who remember my old blog, I think it should be a chastity season, not just a month. 

Never do just the minimum, always push beyond your horizons. That's where you grow!

Caution: Contents in Her Panties May Be Addicting

 Returning home from Las Vegas, my encounter with Shemale pornstar Nefertiti, still burning in my mind, my 2 still separate kinky part of my psyche begin to wrestle for attention. I realized that I had a history of swinging between Femdom submission, then over to Shemale cock submission, and yet I still wasn't able to meld the two. However by reacquainting myself with the forbidden fruit of Shemale cock, those desires yearned out as they had been placed on the back burner by my emerging Feminine side as a sissy slave to Lady Diva Cane and Mistress Morganna. But with one encounter with Nefertiti's magnificent black she-cock, the pendulum began to swing...

 

I found myself hearkening back to my magical experiences with Diamond and how she truly placed me on the journey to the special place of transgenderism. On one hand I know was striving to be more Feminine, and on the other hand I was craving cock in Shemale form only. It was becoming quite the trip.

 

The only problem was there suddenly existed a huge void in terms of Shemales who stirred my passions. In fact the scene back home was quite dismal and as time went on, Nefertiti's cock taste still lingering on my lips, desperation began setting in as the desire to feel Shemale cock on my lips again was strong. My desperation yielded poor results with 2 less then memorable encounters that left me now discouraged. 

As is usual, ones desires exceeds reality, and I had to endure torturous patience in order to take advantage of my next opportunity, no matter where it lay. For now, I had Devina to satisfy me and Lady Diva to serve, but the taste of Nefertiti's cock still remained...