Originally Posted Apr 12, 2020
We hear a lot of talk these days about the "New Normal" and such around COVID19. I would stress that we all fight like hell to make sure the vast overreaches by governments on our liberties and freedoms absolutely NOT become the new normal of anything moving forward, but that's as political as this post will get.
20 days ago, I went past the 1000 days in chastity milestone, and once upon a time, the mere thought of not being able to pleasure myself in the ways I had lived my life for a few decades was something that was pure fantasy of the mind. I couldn't comprehend not succumbing to my filthy urges and jerk off to Femdomination and Shecocks. There is a bit of a saying however, stimulate the mind and the rest will follow..
I have know something about myself for quite a while, and it's been both a blessing and a curse. When I know that I'm doing something for the benefit of others along with myself, I'm often able to achieve a tremendous amount, and conversely when it's just myself that benefits, I often struggle to find the drive to set out and complete a task. My sissy chastity journey has been proof of this because what drives me is the satisfaction that Lady Diva, Maitresse Cathie, and others derive from my chastity devotion to Them. Whenever the road has become difficult, challenging, and sometimes mentally draining, I always remember the pride Those Dominant Women have in my chastity gift to Them and it sees me through to the next plateau, and to the next and so forth.
So now that Day 1000 has come and gone, without me cumming at all, I'm accepting that this is indeed my New Normal. In some ways I feel like the caterpillar wrapped up in a cocoon until such a time comes when it emerges anew as a butterfly. It feels like 1000 days was merely an incubation period to prove to myself that I no longer need in any way to give in to filthy habits learned long ago, and that I must continue to look forward. My new desires now grow stronger as the old ones fade away into the distant path...
My sissy clit doesn't need external attention, but rather my sissy p-spot craves internal stimulation. I relish in the fact that I no longer need to get hard at all for my sissyclit to leak, and it makes me smile warmly each time it happens. My sissyclit doesn't ever need to be the center of any attention, especially mine, when I can be better served using all my talents and skills to make Shecocks cum instead
There's nothing more lovely and satisfying knowing you've brought a Shecock to the point of releasing it's gift to you, either in your mouth, all over your face, or deep inside your asspussy. Why would your own insignificant sissyclit be of any consequence when you have so much pleasure to give to others?
My "New Normal" means I really don't ever have to orgasm again, unless it's due to a Dominant Woman's cock in my asspussy, or nature's gift of Shecock making my sissy p-spot explode, and whether or not I achieve a sissygasm is none of Their concern as long as They are satisfied with the results.
It's taken me years to find this place in my life. I'm so grateful to have found it...
oxoxox
Devina