Devotion Deepens

 

 By now the Silk Trap had Devina firmly secured. A growing wardrobe with lingerie, pantyhose, a dress or two, and wearing panties daily, began to feel perfectly normal. Sometimes the lines were blurry enough even to me, let alone trying to ensure that the rest of the world did not discover my deepest secrets. At that time only a select few knew Devina's story. 

Wearing panties became matter of fact, and occasionally I would wear pantyhose under my pants, when feeling particularly sexy. The thrill of excitement of the taboo nature of doing so began to slowly be replaced with the growing satisfaction of acceptance of my inner Feminine self expressing herself more and more. 

 

I began to pack panties and lingerie with me on vacation trips as it was far more comfortable to lounge around at night in a hotel room wearing negligees or silk pj's & occasionally I would reflect on how far I had come from being that 19yr old nervous as hell sub male waiting for Mistress Morganna for the first time, to where I was at that time, a panty boi, sissy gurl in training, who had developed a love of shemale cock at the same time. As mind blowing as that was, I still saw myself with such a long way to go to reach my ever growing gurly dreams. That's the problem sometimes with living out fantasies; the ones that follow take you places you may never have imagined!

While Devina was geared to serve, please and be respectful to her Mistresses, inside she had a growing sub personality of her own. Devina loved being a slut! Her fantasies would develop into being subject to all sorts of Women and to be used and humiliated for their pleasure and entertainment. On one hand, Devina's secrets in the everyday world were something governments would classify as top secret, yet when dressed, Devina yearned to come forth to more and more Women to share in the Sisterhood of Women. It's a desire that fuels to this day.

 

Devina also began to yearn to bring her inner two desires together of being a gurl enfemme' and my love for shemales realized while transformed. Transgendered girls were always seen as freaks, and subject to scorn and ridicule, yet to me I saw them as angels of Femininity. They represented to me the best I could hope to be, living daily as a Woman. Devina's male alter ego got to have all the fun experiences with Shemales, yet Devina desired strongly to have fun of her own. Visions of being fully transformed, sucking on, and getting fucked by real TGirl cock was very deep rooted & I didn't want anything to do with men, hell I had spent the last several years, purging the male ego from me as much as possible! No, the pecking order was Women, first and always, Shemales, and then farther down, us sissy gurls. Males were a sub species to me; a group that represented the worst in society. Sissy gurls were always inherently better mannered, calmer, and less aggressive, due to the proper training by their Mistress. 

 

When a male gives himself up to a Woman for proper training to realize his true feminine nature, there is an enormous amount of trust placed in that unique relationship. Yet as any sub boi knows, what keeps him on the right path is always that sense of exposure, should he revert to the nasty ways of his male ego. It would take nothing for one's Mistress to completely expose him, and leave him ruined. Most gurls always carry that somewhere in the back of their minds, and I believe it serves as a motivating force to always please their Mistress and to devote themselves to their purpose as gurls 

Devina still had so far to go, but she had already accomplished so much, never before dreamed as possible, and she was becoming more self aware. It would serve her well as her journey continued...