Lets face it gurls, the entire process of recognizing one's inner Femme', accepting it, and allowing it to flourish, can be quite traumatic and terrifying. Even worse when spouses or relationships are involved. We are taught that those desires are abnormal, and those who embrace them are some sort of freaks and whatnot. Much of our formative life in accepting and nurturing our own Feminine spirit is done in secret, with the ever present fear of discovery and ridicule.
However with the societal rise of gender bending ever increasing today, something remarkable is indeed happening. The Female/male paradigm is shifting and more and more Women are recognizing, accepting and embracing those males who chose to honour Womanhood by embracing their Feminine spirit.
That doesn't mean those who engage in transformation are suddenly free of the aforementioned scorn and ridicules of society, but what it does mean is that access to Women who will accept and embrace you as a sissy is increasing all the time.
When I took my first steps down the path towards releasing my inner Femme' desires, I felt like the loneliest person in the world. Who could I turn to, confide in, and lean on? I had no one. My saving grace became my submission to Mistress Morganna who after I expressed my desires towards being transformed, took me in and began nurturing the tiny seedling before Her. One solitary person now knew my deepest secret. When Lady Diva Cane entered the picture, suddenly my world opened tow a grand total of two! Haha! What progress.
However as time went on and Devina began to feel more comfortable in her own skin, carefully and discretely, the circle of Women who would come to know Devina began to grow. Via my online purchasing of Women's clothing, and the friendships that began via email, my circle of Girlfriends began to increase. Lady Bernadett, Tammy, Amber, Mistress Suzana Stern, Amy, Sarah, Megan, now all knew me as Devina, and it made me feel wonderful to have my own group of girlfriends that I could share thoughts and experiences with.
Mistress Suzana was someone who graciously offered Her friendship to me. She would be a great foil in terms of philosophy as She did not fully buy in at all to my theories of being an Femme' submissive slave to Women and Transgendered Women. She would often challenge my views and point out that a cock was still a cock, and while She accepted my views as my own beliefs, She wasn't completely on board with my steadfast point of view that a Woman could posses a cock. She challenged my own beliefs which allowed me to examine them more fully and eventually helped steady my resolve that I wasn't a closeted gay man, but that I was striving for something far beyond in my transformations. Males never did and still don't hold any place in my world whatsoever. But without those challenges, my resolve may have never been tested.
So to all those gurls out there who hide in shame or fear, take heart in knowing more and more Women are abound who not only will not mock you but will embrace you, challenge you, push you, and listen to you. I feel so very fortunate for my circle of girlfriends, because life as a sissy gurl would be extremely lonely without them. Once I was terrified of revealing my inner secrets to anyone, now, albeit still carefully, Devina is now worldwide so to speak, and I'm proud to share my femininity with you all. Gurls, seek out those Women who will lead you to a better place, they are out there waiting..
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