Valentines Day - Getting Closer to Your Mistress

 

 No matter what brings us all to submission to a Dominant Woman to take hold of us, shape us, and turn us into something better than what we once were, there are always steps and hurdles that have to be met, challenged and overcome in order to grow, move forward and flourish.

I'm sure there have been countless subs like myself who remove themselves from the moment where they are bound, humiliated, exposed, sissified, along with a plethora of other situations or experiences, when they find themselves asking, "Am I ready to truly express and confess my deepest desires to my Mistress?"

It's humorous to think we have willingly gotten ourselves to any stage of submission, yet continue to hold onto some of our deepest secrets, desires, and lusts, therefore preventing our Mistress to embrace them, embrace YOU, and work on making you a better sub, and a more devoted one to Her.

 

I certainly was no different, and I've come to learn as in any relationship, trust is built over time. Finding a Domme that you can trust with your deepest desires is truly a wonderful thing. Taking that step to admit your deepest fears, desires, fantasies, etc.. can be like going back to step one when you first gave yourself over to a Domme.

My first revelation on a deeper level beyond the action/response learning curve between Mistress and slave, came when I wanted to focus my submission towards a purely Femme slant under Mistress Morganna. Being extremely fearful of wanting to offend, or to be seen as topping from the bottom, I found it very hard to broach the subject. Instead I put my feelings into written words and presented it to Her after a session. This was a major step in Devina's development and with each revelation to Mistress Morganna and then Lady Diva Cane, I began to feel more fulfilled within my submission to Them.

Beyond, "I like this or don't like that" desires, push yourself to go deeper. Keep in mind that some fantasies will always remain just fantasies, for example if you're a sissy who wishes to be sodomized in a jail cell, I'm quite confident your Mistress would not put you into such harm's way in actuality. However She may have the tools and methods to bring elements of those desires into your time with Her, and in turn bring you closer to your desires than ever imagined.

 

Sometimes, all it takes is for your Mistress to open a door during your time with Her and you simply need to recognize it, and boldly step forward. Don't be afraid, it shows your Mistress that She is accomplishing things with you. For instance, the first time Mistress Morganna began talking to me about how She would one day like to see me sissied up in front of all Her Female friends so They all could take turns fucking me with Their strapons, solicited an ENORMOUS positive response from me! The fact hat She had Her strapon buried deep into my asspussy certainly helped, but from there She knew what additional buttons to start pushing.

While being forced to pole dance for Lady Diva, She made the comment about how good I would look with a real cock in my mouth, to which I blushed, smiled and slyly replied, "I already have, Mistress" Her extremely pleasant surprise opened the door for me to reveal my true Shemale desires and the entire other part of my kink life that up until those moments, were stored in my secret vault.

Those two briefly terrifying moments of honesty wound up bringing me much closer to both Mistress Morganna and Lady Diva, and in hindsight, I'm very glad I took those steps. Lady Diva and I now openly and regularly talk about Shemale desires and my skills as a cocksucker and the places I want Devina to go and it's now natural and normal between Her and I. Rather than wandering around in the BDSM wilderness, my revelations under the trust built has given direction and clarity to my relationships with the Dominant Women in my life, and I'm a far better person for it.

 

Those revelations also allowed me to learn more about Them as well. It was heartwarming to learn my Mistress absolutely loves the idea of me sucking Shemale cock in front of Her, or the idea of going away for a weekend somewhere and having a girls getaway in a strange city where nobody knows you. Some of those things may and will happen, and some may not, but regardless, the road map gets clearer each time through communication. I couldn't be more happy as a result, and my devotion and submission only strengthens. Don't be afraid of opportunity gurls. Open your hearts to the Women in charge of your true self!