The Gift of Giving

 

Over the Holidays I was having one of my regular chats with Lady Diva, who I often refer to as my Dominant Big Sister, as much as my Mistress. O/our relationship, while clearly defined within the D/s boundaries, has blossomed over the years to where W/we can chat about anything, like girlfriends do, from emotions to shower heads, and everything in between.

This week, I was sharing my gratitude over Her influence in my sisssy life, that has simply become part of my everyday life in the Feminine traits of gratitude and empathy. These traits are centered around how I interact with Women in all aspects of my life, and recognizing those traits has helped me become a better sissy and develop a more well rounded Feminine soul.

As Lady Diva put it so well, "Most don't work on the inside.", when I made the comment that it's easy to let panties, stockings, lingerie, etc shape your Feminine exterior, but working on the inside is a constant effort to become a better you. But that effort does pay off in beautiful ways.

On XXXmas morning I made sure to send Lady Diva Her gifts and made sure to include one for Her first Mentor and my first Domme, and eternal Fairy Godmother, Lady Morganna. Lady M is in a state of semi retirement form being a pro-Domme but Dominant Women never ever really retire.  In recent years I have made it a point to include gifts to Her to express my enduring gratitude for the enormous effort She made in taking a useless male lump of clay and shaping me into the sissy I would one day become. Without Her I would not be me, so I now routinely express my gratitude to Her when I can.

I asked Lady Diva to forward Lady Morganna my gift to Her as She is not engaged in the online world, choosing to be very grounded in traditional ways. And the other evening I was pleasantly rewarded by a text from Lady Morganna!

She began thanking me for remembering Her this XXXmas, and W/we engaged in a lovely text chat. The amazing gift that She provided me was to be able to express to Her my eternal reverence and gratitude towards Her for being the catalyst of bringing out the sissy I yearned to be since my earliest days. Without Her compassion and guidance I would never have found the confidence to discover my true self and now be sharing my deepest sissy thoughts with the world; proud that I am the sissy She helped me become. 

To be able to bear one's truth to the people who impact us so deeply and profoundly is an amazing gift. I think this world would be a much better place if we all knew how our influences in other's lives have created good in others. This in turn creates a beautiful energy inside of us. 

Lady Morganna gave me a world full of firsts in all aspects of BDSM, too many to mention, but without Her there would be no me. And the paths I may have went down to find myself likely would have been very damaging and self destructive. All these things I was able to share directly with her and it was such a joyous experience. I could tell She took pride in Her work when She asked to see more pictures of me today which I happily shared. The male lump of clay She began tearing down and rebuilding in Her Dominance, was now a well mannered sissy who cast aside all the ugliness of the world I had held when I walked through Her Dungeon door so many years ago.  We both shared a beautiful moment together to see how far W/we came.

                 (early days of Lady M trampling the ugliness of my pathetic masculinity out of me)

So it there is anything I can hope to pass on to any of you sissy gurls reading this, is practice the habits of gratitude, especially towards the Women, both Dominant and otherwise, in your sissy lives. Work on your empathy towards all Women and let those lessons change your outlook on others, as it will reward you by expanding your mind, heart and soul as a sissy. The universe will reward you. I keep experiencing this first hand and so can you!