When Denying the Physical, the Mental Takes Over

 Originally Posted May 6, 2018

 

 They say when you lose one of your senses, the others become heightened. Its been my experience now after over 10 months in sissy chastity that when denying physical sensations for a long time, the brain creates new pathways to fill in what is now lost. Soon enough it will be a year for me in complete chastity. No releases for good behavior, no reward wanks, nothing. Complete shutdown of my sissy clit. The only sensations have been the semi regular sissy leaks that I now love to have, fully limp.

As I've shared before, the psychological changes that have combined with my embrace of my sissy life and my sissy chastity journey, has rendered me almost fully ambivalent to being stimulated sexually by anything other than Shecock. My admiration for Women in daily life now revolves around fashion sense because being locked in sissy chastity is a 100% fool proof way to never get any type of vanilla sex, so after many months locked, one doesn't even try anymore.

My daily regimen involves a steady and constant diet of Shecock to the point where I want nothing else sexually. And when you crave nothing but Shecock day after day after day, even your dreams turn into visions of servicing Shecocks of Trans Women and Domme Women.

 

The mind is the most powerful sexual organ, and when you are permanently denied the physical please of your born gender, I've learned that I can almost bring myself to sissygasm through focused and intense mental imagry of Shecocks and being fucked by them. I became self aware of this about 5 weeks ago when in the middle of a waking dream, I saw myself being surrounded by Shecock after Shecock all waiting for me to suck them to orgasm, and pump my asspussy full of Shecum. The images were so powerful that I began to feel the sensation of precuming, while still being limp. It startled me so that I awoke, thinking I had leaked! It was then I realized that beyond being fucked to sissygasm, I might be able to leak on command, by intense sexual meditation imagery.

 

I'm so grateful to Lady Diva and Maitresse Cathie for my sissy chastity journey as pure devotion to their guidance. I'm learning things about my true inner sissy that I never could have had I not cast all remnants of my emasculated male ego long behind in the dust. Being a denied sissy, only dreaming of Shecock to satisfy and to make me sexually fulfilled is a real blessing of Femdomination.