Sometimes There are More Questions Than Answers

Originally posted Jan 24, 2014

 

 I'm sure I'm not alone at all, when I take time to reflect on who I am and how I got to a particular place in time. It's always good to take time to reflect, look at the world around you, and gauge where you fit or don't. I guess this is one of those times.

If you've been following this little, or now not so little blog of mine, you'll know that I became hooked on Feminine things at a very young age, and it has stayed with me all my life, to now where I can freely express my inner Feminine self, thanks to so many wonderful people in my life past and present. This does not make me unique really, as there are millions like me, who also have connected with their Feminine self in many forms, for a myriad of reasons and manifestations.

Somewhere along the way in my teen years, my fascination with Shemales began, and once as a young adult, I began to experiment on those desires, did I slowly begin to put the pieces of my inner Femininity together with the pieces of my exterior interactions in what would be broader defined as the "kink world".

As time has continued on and my journey has taken me to places un-imagined, I've been able to slowly blend the three aspects closer and closer together; my devotion and submission to Femdomination, my inner spirit you all know as Devina, and my love of what makes Transgender Women so special. Within those things, also has come acceptance of my place within that hierarchy.

2013 was an important year as I made the transition with my Shemale encounters from once being primarily a top, to now being exclusively a bottom. The help of a chastity device has ensured now that my sissyclit will serve no further purpose as an instrument of penetration, and my asspussy now is the sexual organ that is paramount. Quietly this has been a very proud achievement in my gurly life and I have connected deeper with my inner Femme spirit in those encounters than ever before.

My goal continues to serve my Mistress, and to combine my submission to Her, and to please Her by showing Her the results of Her patience with me, and Her skills of transformation. Her continuance in treating me as a gurl at all times, even via text messages, keeps reinforcing my life as Devina has meaning and value, and for that I'm so very grateful.

But that really isn't what is front and center on my gurly mind as I type this. In compiling new and interesting images, stories, and videos etc to share with you, I come across a mass volume of sissy material on the web, that I find myself going through to find what suits me and my needs. Lately I've been wondering about those gurls who desire to transform, purely to subject themselves as a submissive to males. Since I come at Feminization from the complete other end of the spectrum, I often wonder to my own amazement why they do what they do? 

Keep in mind, I'm not judging their choice in how they express their Femininity, but rather trying to understand what makes them want to be with a male in that state? There is a mountain of material out there that covers this end in severe depth. Now let me say one thing here, because you reading this might be saying, "It's about the cock you silly bitch!" LOL, well yes I know that! But it has to be something different (and obviously is) cos I LOVE the cock! I take a backseat to no gurl in my cocksucking skills. Devina is one damn finely skilled cocksucker let me tell you! =)

I guess I found my outlet of my cock desires in a way that doesn't require me to subject myself to males, and I'm sooooo thankful for following my curiosity towards Shemales. Between Dominant Women, and Shemale Princesses of the Female World, I have all I could ever hope for as a gurl.

So it's easy for me to accept the above truth, (submitting to cock you silly bitches! ;) ) yet concretely separate my needs that all that cock is in Female form, from all the other cock out there. It's ok, I'm not greedy in that way. Mistress Diva tells me how proud She is of me that I'm not just another sissy whore that will put any cock in my mouth or asspussy, and indeed I will admit to being quite picky even with my Shecocks. 2014 I think will take me to the precipice of combining all my loves, desires, and natural feelings of Femininity together to create something truly magical as a keystone marker of my journey into Womanhood. I can't believe it how far I've come, and how far I want to go. Follow your heart gurls, it will take you to amazing places...

Play Safe

Devina