Originally Posted June 1, 2019
I often think deeply about certain key aspects of my sissy life and my ongoing sissy journey, and the evolution that's happened physically, mentally, and psychologically. I'm often fascinated at witnessing the true power of Femdomination at work in my own life along with others. It's often until I'm well past a certain momentous stage when only then am I able to recognize it and marvel in how it has permanently changed me, and for the better.
Which brings me to the topic of cum.
Sperm, seed, jizz, or what-have-you. Before any sissy even recognizes their true calling, most of us go through stages in our early and young adult lives being psychological slaves to our original born (and inferior ) gender. Our factory packaged biology, which is destined to bring out the worst in us eventually, demands that dedicate a great deal of time and effort in casting our cum into the world. The actions and inevitable egos that combine with that call of our original nature, develops some of the worst traits in all of humanity, but luckily for some of us, we can choose to be better.
By the time us sissies get to the seismic shift in life where we are staring our first real cock in the face, we already are well aware of the ability and power (both real and metaphorically) of what your first cock represents. You are about to become a bottom in the pecking order of your own world. You are about to hand over any and all illusions of what you once thought you were, and are about to embrace what you will become. All the silky Women's underthings may have been the gateway, and you might view cock as the point of no return, but hidden behind that is the real addicktion. Cum
From the very first second the first Shecock passed over my lips, all I could think and feel is the amazing sensations of how smooth Diamond's cock was, and how mind blowing the experience was. As funny as it may sound now, the fact that knowing full well what the inevitable end result of pleasuring a cock was, it really was not anything I was remotely thinking about in that moment. It was all about the Shecock. But eventually we all come around ;)
Sucking Shecock became a most taboo and wild experience, but back then I was still fooling myself in believing that it was something to do for fun, and was only a diversion to my vanilla life. I imagine it's a common thing anyone who has experimented with their sexuality experiences. We all think we can go back. Ya right!
It was only through the power of Femdomination at the skilled hands of Mistress Morganna, and then Lady Diva Cane, that my evolution from male subbie, to panty boi, to admitted closet sissy, that my true growth stage began towards what was to become Devina. Taking their strapon cocks regularly, being sissified, and learning my true place in the hierarchy of nature's true Femdom first order, laid the foundations of what was to become my sissy addicktions. But back then I was still fooling myself, living a life where half of me was a submissive subbie, transforming into the sissy life I tapped into in my youth, while the other half would gender bend with Trans Women, sucking Shecock and loving every second of it, but still sexually gratifying myself as a top with them.
It couldn't continue that way.
And it didn't. My firstexperience with a Dominant Trans Woman, Mistress Z would seal the deal and from then on, when I spend time with Trans Women, my desires had shifted from topping to being a bottom with them, and it was then that my real transition in life began to cement itself.
I look back now with bemusement at when I took my first full Shecock facial. When you are fully lost in sucking Shecock, you real that point in the back of your mind when you can feel Her get a little more tense, and your sissy brain tells you whats literally cumming, but the first burst is magical. It's a combination of hot, silky smooth, sticky and unrelenting. In actuality a sissy facial lasts no more than 20-30 secs or so, but in you sissy brain, time slows down and it feels like a glorious fountain of validation that you as a sissy slut made a cock cum. You can't help but be caught up in that wave of satisfaction and pride.
But now Pandora's Box has been opened. You just discovered the most powerful drug a sissy can experience.
Cum.
And before you have even cleaned up from your first facial, you are a cum slut. You have no idea how this will change you, but it will. Permanently.
Combining Femdomination, Devina, and my love of Shecock, was the recipe for the transformation process I live today. Being a sissy is a continual process of transformation, and evolution, growth, achievement, and further transformation, etc etc. It has led me to a place where I now have spent 700+ days in sissy chastity, and an acceptance of new Truths in my life:
Devina is who I am
Devina will never engage in any activity where the sissy seed that drips from her sissy-clit will ever find its way inside any Woman ever again.
The steady process of harnessing, submission, and eradication of what was my EME (emasculated male ego) has with it, discarded any desire to "spread any seed". In fact it's now fully the opposite
I've now embraced a new encompassing love of cum. Shecock cum. I've felt the spectacular sensations of taking several Shecock facials now. The experiences are seared into my brain as some of my proudest moments as Devina.
I've also shared with Lady Diva a video of me with TS Sunshine, with her transformed as Devina, taking Sunshine's hot load in my face, hair, dress, etc. Gurls, let me tell you, when you show a Domme or any Woman, in person, a video of you taking a cum bath facial, and you see the smile and look of satisfaction on Her face, you are addickted to Her pleasure in you. You will want to give your gifts of sissy sluttiness, to Her repeatedly as they are the only true gifts you can give Her, because they are living proof of Her efforts in re-shaping you into something better.
You will evolve to the point in your sissy life where you will love cum more than you ever have before in your life. How you once viewed cum as a lower life form male pales in comparison. You will learn to live with the fact that while you will never cum inside any Woman ever again, that you will crave the hot splatter of Shecock on your face, and the searing hot sudden lubrication of your sissy asspussy when a real cock unloads inside of it. Your satisfaction is in the painting of your face, forever marking you a sissy cum slut and the cum that leaks down your thighs from a proper sissy pounding. It's what you will find yourself living for, and the joy that your Domme will feel in how you have fully embraced Her path for you.
The best part of the journey is that there is always more to cum! Embrace the ride, it's unlike anything you will ever experience, beyond your wildest dreams!
Sincerely Sissy,
Devina